so Ethan once the guy I could talk to about everything now the guy that hates my guts. I miss him though I miss everyone. for the past week I have been completely cut off from every stoner I chill with stony wasn't at school all week and stan has senior lunch, so basically I'm lonely as fuck all day and mostly sober because no one wants me to come get stoned with them Cruz Ethan hates me. i have been over this again and again in my head trying to figure put what I could do. make things better most people suggest I fuck Ethan witch is not something I want to do considering I fucked his best friend only a week ago. Ethan just doesn't understand is what I keep telling myself to keep me from completely hating myself. Ethan gives me this look ams believed me its the worst thing in the world he hasn't said a word to me all week and he's got almost everyone to stop talking to me. there is not one person who doesn't know that I fucked stony and there's only a hand full of people who don't think it was completely wrong. but one things for sure most people think Ethan should never talk to me again. I really hurt Ethan and I feel like shit because of it but its not like I promised not to fuck stony and me and Ethan were not during and I told him I didn't want a relationship with anyone right now. so I really didn't do anything wrong really, right? I don't know anymore man I feel like shit for fuck sake I bitched out my English class one morning then left for the rest of the day I have made most of the people that like me hate me and next to know one still talks to me so what I have left is my best friend and nerdiest and ,most demonic person alive Callie , Savannah my brown bitch also the first person to talk to me on I switched schools in 3 garde, and Stan because well I fucked him the weekend before were what you would call really close friends. and that's about it not people are ether disappointed in me , hate me, or ink I'm a total slut bag whore. I think the only good thing outta this is the fact that most guys have stopped hitting on me the only exception is hunter who apparently can't take the hint that I'm not interested in fucking him.
so yeah that's my shitty ass stoner life this week. want more? I'll try to post a new story next Sunday or Monday
