My life has been a roller coaster since my last entry. I got kicked put of my dads last June before I was even done my exams out on my ass nothing but the clothes on my back. It hurt so much to be without my daddy everyday I cried. When I first left I was living with seb rivard, he got me fucked up on drugs and alcholo all day everyday and forced me into a relationship with him. Where I was never allowed to leave or sleep or do anything but drink do drugs and hack darts. Sheamus my cousin was my saviour I went over one day to visit him and his mom he seen the way he talked to me and ended it for me. Shea and sally took me in and took care of me for the next 2 months Andrew stayed with me from the first day I got to Shea's and even when we got kicked put and had to live in tents he stayed with me. We started dating and everything was great or at least I thought so he cheated on me and gave me the clap during the summer it was horrible I cried so much because I knew he had cheated and I didn't want to admit it. The worst part was it was with who is now my best friend.
Me and Andrew got our own place in hailibury and we did really good I went back to school and he worked, started selling weed to make extra cash for our smokes and weed. He started getting mad I wasn't working so I stopped doing school so I could work I couldn't find a job and I felt horrible so I became the perfect housewife for him. One night we were having a fight so we fucked in the ass before we went to bed and at 5 am he dumped me I was so hurt so I fucked his best friend on his bed. He told me he wanted to take me back until I did that but we started talking about it and he was crying and telling ME everything he loved about me for three hours and we got back together. And then we had our second break up so bullshit I can even remeber what it was about but I got together with Austin Evans he was amazing and we got high as fuck on molly all the time and speed and coke but I was cheating on him with Andrew when I finally stopped to focus on Austin. Austin changed and I had to break it off. I moved to cobalt and stayed with Cody everyday all day and night was drugs more drugs and sex a lot of sex I got down to 90 pounds for the first time in my life I had a thigh gap and I cried so much it hurt me to look that unhealthy.
After that my mother moved back up to Ontario and I lived on her friends couch n she stayed on the other couch it wasnt that bad actuly but then she made me want to kill myself for the first time ever. I have Ben depressed for three years and never suicidal until I lived with her so my amazing cousin Courtney came and saved me I moved out into the bush with her and started going to englehart high school
