I can't believe I did that After everything I just did it and it w so easy and I loved it I love how he makes me feel, I love the way he looks at me I love everything about him. OK so what happened was Ethan walked me to my last class food and he asked for a hug so I hugged him but after I let go I grabbed his shit I pulled him close and I kissed him. I kissed ethan . I can believe I actually kissed him. his lips are just so soft I couldn't resit. but what dose that mean like I don't want to date anyone but Ethan's not the type of guy you can be friends with and have casual sex with mainly Cuz he's a virgin. and then there's Brandon I like him but I don't feel comfortable doing stuff with him if Ethan's around I'm pretty sure I have fucked up Enoch and if I kissed another guy in front of him I'm pretty sure he would stop talking to me for good. stony wasn't there today I'm not sure if I'm disappointed or if I'm happy like I love getting time alone with Ethan but I also really enjoy time with stony so yeah. oh and apparently I have become a petting zoo because people just co up to me and pet my hair . the hair that I spend roughly three hours on each day and is inhumanly soft it was com paired to feathers, kittens, and baby puppy when they first come out all naked and covered in goo. I like the puppy one cuz its really twisted and dark, kind of like callie .
