Lost Girl

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Forgive - "Stop feeling angry or resentful toward (someone) for an offense, flaw, or mistake."
Forgiveness - The action or process of forgiving or being forgiven.

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Mia POV
May 20th

Yes I know Jesus wants us to forgive others for their sins they may have done towards you, but me.... I just can't come to a closer and forgive the sick fuck who've done things to my once Virgin body. I was pure as white... no stains, no rips, or holes, I was innocent, I was free of drama/worry. Now today I am impure...dark. His hands and actions have stained my mind, body, and soul. My heart has been ripped, trying to mend back to its original state, but eventually when it does heal, it'll still be scarred. Rape is my drama... my worry. I fear of men, I fear that all men look at me a certain way because of that one Pest, that damn Coward. I couldn't forgive him, but that's a Sin. My sinning is just as equal to his.

Mathews 6:14-15

14. "For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you.
15. "But if you do not forgive others their sins, Your Father will not forgive your sins."

So yes, I know I have to forgive him one day but today... how
I'm feeling in this moment that is the least of my worries. I want revenge, but what will that do? In the end when everything goes down I'll be behind bars for approximately the rest of my life... for what Murder... SIN!

Closer?
I cannot face him!
But you have to one day so why not get it over with!?
I scoffed. That day will be a million years far from today.

Voices in my head battled back and forth until I screamed out of anger. Causing everyone to look at me, I've been in a shitty mood so some might not have been phased but others were. I was currently over Lee's beach house with Lee, Chris, August, Yana, Annahir, Joey, Moe, and Kels.

A/N: Yana and Annahir are from the Girls Night. Moe and Kels are Miaa's step brother Joey's friends. I've known Joey's friends ever since I moved in with him. So they were too like little brothers.

I roughy pushed back my chair and rushed to a empty guess room. Slamming the door, I felt my anger rise causing my skin the get hot, from my blood boiling. The after math of IED is some shit.

There was a knock on the door but I act as if it went unnoticed, but the worried person on the other side of the door was so concerned, they didn't care that I haven't responded to their gesture of them asking to enter the room. It was none other than my Lover, the man that I am not afraid of, the man that haven't made me question my trust for him. The man that asked to enter my treasure. The man that I deeply connected with.

He looked me in my eyes, I supposed searching for something or reading me, but I was wrong he just wanted to compel me... make me melt under his gaze and it honestly worked. I gave in and hugged onto his neck, as I engulfed his cologne I felt as ease. Almost as if you were on the beach at night listening to the water rush to shore. He was my safe haven from all of my worries... I made sure to tell him what was going through my mind after I embraced him... I needed that so badly, sometimes you just need that bear hug, it's a legit stress reliever. I looked him in his eyes and spoke

"If I don't forgive him for his sin, then that's me sinning. I can't find the strength in my mind heart or soul to forgive him though. I thought about closer, but closer means coming face to face with the Evildoer. He went to me, his Girlfriend's minor cousin. Someone who he barely knew, who he had no relation with, to take something that wasn't his... without my consent."