But She Is My Teacher?

Nothing Else Matters

Perrie's POV

February 4, 2017 

I woke up this morning remembering the beautiful night last night. My beautiful girlfriend took me to Nandos it was so fun. I sit in bed watching her sleep as I am reminiscing about it.  

*Last Night* (Honk, Honk) I run outside as Jade is waiting for me in the car, as I get in she takes my hand and gives a kiss, since were just going to Nandos I don't really dress all that fancy, but Jade said I look beautiful anyway. I was wearing a gray sweater with a flannel underneath and blue jeans with white keds. My hair was down, and I had a no makeup, makeup look. Jade looked so pretty last night, she was wearing a red flannel dress with some flats, and her hair was down also but two strands from the front were braided to the back and tied off. First we went to Nandos, the one closest to the shore and I got the Peri Peri chicken of course and Jade got the Sunset burger. After we ate we walked down to the shore and started to walk down the beach, in front of us I saw a little candle light but thought nothing of it until I we got closer and there was a blanket and  two ice cream cones waiting for us, it is January bit I ate it any way. She sat down and I sat down right next to her as we ate our ice cream. For the remanider of the time on the beach we sat in silence it was really peaceful and nice. After we finished the ice cream we walked back to her car and drove to her house. We watched a movie and fell asleep. 

*Present*

"Hey Jadey, your finally awake" I said as I looked into her brown eyes. "Good Morning Perrie, did you sleep well"  she says as she stretches her arms outwards, she wraps them around me and gives a cute little hug. " I slept fine, I was just thinking about last night, It was perfect Jade thank you so much for the perfect birthday" I said "No problem it was my pleasure" she says as she kisses my lips, I felt butterflies in my stomach (like I do every time) and her soft lips touching mine gives me shivers down my back. She pulls away and i get out of my daze, her kisses seem to last forever even if they last  2 seconds. "Oh my god, I have to get home, my mom wanted me to spend today at home because  wasn't home yesterday for my birthday, Im going to get changed" I get up out of bed but I feel a tug on my gray calvin sports bra and I plunge back into the warm bed into the arms of an angel. " But you don't like it at home Pez" she says as she tickles me "I know I wish I could stay here but its important for us to not become sucpious anymore" I say in between short breaths and sudden squeals as I try to get away from her moving hands. " She thinks your sleeping over at Jesy's with Leigh-Anne " I know and she just texted me that her Leigh are going to be here in ten minutes to pick me up and drop me off at home" I say reading the message. "Alright party pooper I'll let you get ready"

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"Hey Leigh hey Jes, how was your night" I say as I get into the car

"Would have been better if you were their" Jesy says

"Im sorry, you know I was with Jade" I say apologetically 

"It seems like your always with her Perrie" I frown because I know Leigh is serious when she calls me Perrie

" I know she is your girlfriend and you situation isn't easy, but we miss you Perrie and we aren't always going to be there when your plans with Jade don't work out" Jesy says

" I get it , I understand, and again I really am sorry you know I wouldn't intenitally hurt you guys, I love you and I promise we will hang out all day tomorrow" I say as Leigh is pulling up in my driveway

"Don't make promises you can't keep" Jesy says as she throws my over night bag out the window at me, and I make my way up to my door but fail to got through my door as tears start streaming down my face and my sister well step-sister caitlin comes out and gives me a tight hug, I guess she saw my bag being thrown at me then me walking up the steps with hot tears falling down my face. "Its okay Perrie, they will get over it I'm sure" she says "No you don't understand I really messed up this time Caitlin, I don't think they will ever forgive me" I say in between wiping my tears from my face. "What happened Perrie" she says rubbing my arm for emotional support " I can't talk about it right know Im sorry", I run upstairs and shut my door and grab the closest pillow on my bed and bury my head into it and just let the tears roll, well I'm glad I didn't put on any makeup. After awhile I find myself not crying and curled up under my covers, I dont remeber ever getting into bed but my head is kind of foggy right know, and so are my eyes. "Honey, Perrie you okay", My mom says as she softly opens my door, "Yeah mom, ill be alright, I just want to be alone right now" I said at a almost whisper. "Okay sweetie when you're ready you can come down stairs and open your birthday presents and have some cake with the family." She says then she closes my door and I fall asleep. When I wake up the sun is still out and I check my phone and it is already 1:30 so I go downstairs, even though I really just want to hug Jade right now. "Hey Perrie you want to open some presents" "yeah sure" "If you want you can slice the cake for us" "Okay, sounds cool"

I just sit with my family and we celebrate my birthday and I start to feel better, knowing everyone around me loves me. But I still feel terrible keeping my secret from my mom, but I know I could never tell her because she would just kick my out again. After that is all over we all just spend the day together around the living room watching movies and just talking, of course I make up stories about what I did with Leigh-Anne and Jesy, although I don't really talk much at all about them because overtime I do, I get sad again. During the different movies Im texting Camila and her group friends who have sort of become a support system for me, they are really good at just being there for me and giving me advice even if they don't the whole story, and 9 times out of 10 the barley know half the story. I am also texting Jade and telling all the stuff that happened after I left her house. 

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Authors note

Well sorry for the long wait on the story, I thought I wold be more active since i am on spring break but I have barley even gotten off my couch and stopped watching Netflix, but yay i updated!