Alone

How was it ?

"What was your dream about?' I slyly ask.

"I don't want to talk about it." I watch him as he pulls out a cigarette.

"whoa!, when did you start smoking? " I ask considering, I used to smoke do to stress.

"Does it matter?" He retorts .

"I....No I ... I was just.....asking ..." I say, confused .

"I'm sorry,I didn't know, I ...I don't know what got over me... I'm so~ It's fine... I'm going to go ...somewhere ..." I mumbled and got up .

"No! Don't go... please ." He begged .

"I think its only best that I go... Tony... " I opened his front door to leave .

"Please... don't leave ..." I turn around expecting to see him behind me, but no. He's on his knees, begging me to stay.

"Tony get up...." I say, and run to him.

"Please I'm begging you...To stay here with me.." I fail to not look him in the eyes .

"Oh Tony.." I kneel down to him and wipe his tears away. His eyes are as red as blood , he's pale , he looks scared . afraid.

"Lets take you to your room, and lie you down, I'll take a wash cloth for your face. " I say, as he gets him self up .

"I'm sorry Aaron .. I just ... My love for you ..is crazy. I try to convince my self you're like a little sister to me ....but I realized the last time you left mad at me ... That night , was the night I fucked everything up , my house my relationship...everything ... No matter how hard I tried to forget you , your smile popped in my head.... When Steph and I made love .... I ...I called her Aaron ,.... I'm madly inlove with you .. and I cant loose you ..." I am sitting in a stool at his kitchen bar , and he is walking over to me .

"The day you wanted to jump off the Bay bridge .. ~Tony don't bring that up please ~No listen ... please . That day ... when I found out you were trying to commit, I ran all the way to the bridge . I told the police you were my girlfriend. If you would have jumped ... I would have jumped ... "

He paused .

"Tony.... please .."

"If you go I go ...I don't want to loose you... I love you ..I wont let... something like Suicide take you away from me ... "

"Tony.... I love you , but I ~ before I could finish , his pink plumped lips crash to my small soft ones .

His tongue traced my lips seeking for an entrance.

"Tony" I moaned as his tongue entered . His mouth warm against mine.

And me wanting him, needing him, more. Just more. This isn't enough .

"Aaron ...~He paused~ be my girlfriend , I will ask your brothers of course... "

'oh shit vic ! You're supposed to be home by ten! Its already 12:00 idiot !' my inner goddess reminds me 2 hours later.

"Shit ! I was supposed to be home by 10:00. Vic is going to kill me... "

"He called me earlier .."

"Vic is going to kill me" I repeat .

I hear the door bell ring .

"Who is it ?" Tony asks

"It's Vic Open this fucking door Perry. NOW!" He yells.

"What's up bro?" Jaime greets .

"Nothing~ Where is she ?" Vic asks walking straight into the kitchen, where we had been, and doesn't seem to acknowledge me, on the couch, next to the door.