SnowBaz One Shots

Diary

Baz was in his dorm room bored as hell. He already did his homework and a little extra more, but he was too tired to go out and do something physically, and he already read every book in the library. (The library at the school wasn't big). 

     Baz looked over at Simon's half of the room and decided to walk over to his bed and lay down smelling Simon's scent. He turned around a little too quickly and fell off the bed. When he opened his eyes he saw a black book under his bed. Snow probably forgot to give back a library book or something Baz thought. He grabbed the book but when he looked at the cover, he realized he's never seen it at the library. He opened the book to reveal messy handwriting, that was sort of readable.

     Baz flipped the pages to reveal even more writing and about half way the pages were empty with lines on the fading, yellow paper. 

      Is this, Baz started to wonder Snows diary?

     Baz flipped to a random page and started reading.

4, April 

Huh, that was only about a week ago.

I feel like something is off with me. I think I may be in love with Baz. But I can't be. He is supposed to be my mortal enemy. We're supposed to fight to the death one day I'm supposed to hate, despise him! But I CAN'T! And I hate it. Knowing every second that I'm madly in love with him and he hates me,like he's supposed to. At least he's doing his part right, I always fail at everything, I fail at making a simple spell and I'm supposed to be the chosen one! I'm the worst chosen one. I'm the worst human being. I hate this.I never do anything right. I can't even PERTEND to hate him! My face turns red when I'm near him! I can't control anything! I'm useless! But I guess I have to learn from these things.  I really do hate myself so much for these things. Baz has always been so mean to me. Sometimes he'd be so rude to me that at the time he said the thing I'd hold in my feelings and when I would be going to sleep I'd cry. Who knew a human could be so cruel

Wow. Baz had to stop. He never knew Simon felt this way. He never knew Simon hated himself this much. How could such a cute, and happy person, have this much self doubt, and hatred towards themselves? And Baz. Was Baz really that cruel to Simon? He just did it so Simon would not see that he had feelings for him. He didn't know he hurt him that badly. Water slowly filled Baz's eyes as he turned the page.

I  don't know why I love Baz even if he's cruel to me. I sometimes feel that he doesn't mean what he says. Like he just says it to hide something. i don't know what it is but that thought is probbably utterly ridiculous. I want to tell Baz I love him but if I do, I know he'll laugh in my face and probably make me wallow in my  own shame until I die. I mean that wouldn't be so bad...Okay yeah NO. I may be slightly depressed,

Slightly.

but not enough to kill myself. I don't even want to consider that as an option. I can fake my smile, I can fake how I feel, but not around him. It's hard and probably wrong to say, but I love Baz Pitch. 

Baz was sitting on Simon's bed reading. After reading what he wrote he was full on crying. How could  he do this to Simon? It was all his fault.

All your fault. A voice in Baz's head repeated.

All your fault

All your fault

All your fault

The squeak of the door opening told Baz Simon was back. Simon entered the room to see Baz looking over at him, sobbing. 

Damn, Simon thought even when he cries he's cute. 

Simon tried to figure out why he was crying then looked down at Baz's hands seeing he had a black book in them. 

Did he read it? Oh no Oh no Oh no Oh no Oh no Oh no Oh no! But why was he crying?

"I'm so sorry, Simon." Baz said almost whispering through his tears.

Simon turned red and asked "Why are you apologizing?" 

Baz stood up making Simon flinch a little bit. He walked over to him and put his arms around Simon's neck and pulling him into a hug.

"I'm so, so sorry, I never meant to hurt you that badly. I'd rather die than see you feel that way about yourself. Please forgive me I'm so sorry never in the entire world did I mean to hurt you that badly. Please if you're going to hate anyone hate me not yourself please Simon. I'm so so sorry."

Simon, almost completely and utterly shocked by what just happened had his mouth hanging open and arms at his sides. "Baz, I..." Simon did not know what to do. He's never thought of this situation  before and din't plan on what to do for it. Simon put his hands on baz's shoulders and pushed him at arms length, still holding him. 

"I never thought you'd say those words, Baz."

"I love you, Simon, I only pretended to be mean to you so you wouldn't catch on I didn't know that I -" suddenly Baz was cut off by Simon's lips a interlocking with his. Simon's lips were so soft and warm and tasted like cherries. One of his arms were around his neck pulling him closer to him and the other one was running it through Baz's hair then on top of his cheek.

Baz's lips were cooler and salty because of his tears. With Simon's hand that was on top of Baz's cheek, he wiped away his tears with his thumb.

They then seperated foreheads touching each other's.

"I love you, Baz. Why didn't you just say something?" Simon said.

"I didn't say because I didn't know if you felt the same way and I didn'twantto be humiliated. i didn't want to be rejected. So I hid my feelings. I'm so sorry Simon. I don't think you can forgive me." he said more tears coming down.

"But I do forgive you."

"Then you're crazy." Baz looked into Simon's blue, blue eyes and giggled a bit. Simon giggled a bit too.

"I love you, Simon I can't live without you."

"I love you, Baz. I can't imagine myself with someone else better than you, Baz Pitch."

They stared at each other and returned to kiss each other as the light from the sun slowly going down  reflects them as they fall deeper in love with each other.

Aww I actually am really liking writing stories now. They do certainly get bigger with each one. The first one having 35 words and this one having 1211 words is amazing! I feel I have personally improved with my writing. Anyways I hope you enjoy and please like, comment, and vote! Thank you and Carry On with your lives! ;)