Don't Tell ➸ Vhope

~5~

"I still can't believe what happened last night. I got up to use the bathroom and saw Hoseokie hyung sitting on his bed crying. Normally he seems so happy but he is human and everyone gets sad sometimes. I'm feeling sad too."

Flashback

"Hobi? What are you doing up?" Taehyung asked. Hoseok wiped his eyes with his sleeve and looked away. "I-it's nothing. I'm just stressed that's all" he told the younger. Taehyung got up from his spot on the bed and went to comfort Hoseok. He grabbed his hand and pulled him to the living room. "Wanna talk about it?"

Hoseok nodded and the two sat on the sofa. "So what happened?" Taehyung asked. Hoseok sighed and started talking. "I like someone...a lot. I've liked them for a while now but they clearly don't see how I feel. I keep giving them hints and everything yet they completely ignore them. I'm starting to think that I should just give up." Hoseok burst into tears again.

"Hyung it's okay" Taehyung said. He wrapped his arms around the elder and started stroking his hair. "I think that instead of letting this person figure it out on their own, you should just tell them. That way you could know for sure how they feel."

Hoseok buried his face in the crook of the younger's neck. "But I'm scared of rejection. He already likes someone else" he sobbed. Taehyung's eyes widened. "He? I bet this 'he' is Jimin? I just know it" he thought. "You like Jimin. You don't have to hide it from me." Hoseok stiffened up. "H-how did you know?" He asked.

"You're so obvious. Who else looks at their friends that way?"

"Well...you always look at me that way and I don't think you like me"

"I don't"

"Well then can I ask why you look at me like that? Your stare is so intense that I think lasers will come out of your eyes and zap me in the head"

"...I-I don't know. I guess I just admire you. This may sound weird but when I look at you I feel much more confident and strive to do better so that I can be like you. You're so good at everything. I always believe that you're perfect"

Hoseok looked up at Taehyung and saw that he was now crying. He reached up and wiped his tears away. "I'm not perfect, Tae. No one is. But it means so much to know that someone looks up to me. I feel so honored."

A now flustered Taehyung was blushing like crazy and his heart was going a mile a minute. "I love you. As a brother I mean. Um, I still have to pee so yeah I'm gonna go handle that" he rambled. He quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. He ended up staying in there all night. Hoseok tried to get him out but soon gave up and went to bed.

Flashback end

"I'm such an idiot. I bet he knows that I like him now. He wasn't supposed to find out but I just had to open my big mouth. This is just great. What if he doesn't want to be my friend anymore and we're nothing but two guys in the same group?

That would be awful.

What if he thinks I'm more weird than before? What if he hates me? It already hurts that I'm dealing with one-sided love but it'll hurt more if he doesn't even want to be friends.

I just like him so much. I've been feeling this way for years yet he likes someone else. I don't blame him for liking Jimin though. He's really good at everything too. They would make a nice couple. 

But I still don't ship them.

I don't ship Hobi with anyone but me. I know the ship won't sail and that we're one of the most underrated ships but I still wish it was real. I would be the happiest person on earth if he could return my feelings.

But he can't. He likes Jimin and I'm left with a broken heart.

I always say this but...

If you happen to find this voice recorder:

Don't tell Hobi.

V's entry...

End."