Don't Tell ➸ Vhope

~6~

"Is it normal to wanna stay at home all day? Usually I love going outside but today I wasn't up for anything that had to do with getting up. Why? There's no particular reason. Sadly, Jungkook threw me out of bed and dragged me to a stupid photoshoot.

'It'll be fun' he said. Well it wasn't fun. Not one bit. The amount of criticism that I was given was so stressful. 'Fix your posture' 'You have eye bags' 'You need to look happy'

How can you look happy if you're not? What if you want to rot away in a dark dungeon away from everyone and everything? Well if I did that Namjoon hyung would kill me. Thankfully I managed to somewhat pull it off.

My smile was very believable and my eye bags just vanished with a little concealer. I was honestly relieved but I also felt extremely fake. But I'll do anything to make sure that the fans are happy. They're my first priority.

After our photoshoot, we went out for a meal. I wasn't that hungry though. Of course our lovely Jinnie had to notice and started feeding me his food. 'You need to eat' he told me. I was annoyed but I couldn't get mad at him. He was just looking out.

That's when Hoseok looked right at me and smiled. He just smiled and kept eating. What was that about?

He's so confusing! Ugh. I'm so tempted to shout out 'Hobi hyung I have a crush on you!' just so he'd know. That way he'll be forced to say whether he likes me or not. Well, he doesn't like me but at least I'll know for sure.

*sigh* I don't think I like the whole  idea of love. What's the point of it if you'll only get hurt in the end?

I've seen way too many shows where the relationship didn't work out and the two parties end up hating each other in the end. I don't want that happening to us.

I want hyung and I to be on good terms with each other for all eternity. Even after death I want to be friends with Hobi. Wait, I take that back. I still want to be friends with everyone. We're a family and I don't want to be that one person who ruins it.

If you're listening to this, please don't be a fool like me. One-sided love hurts. Watching someone you love be infatuated with someone else is like a bullet to the heart. It feels terrible.

Oh look. I'm crying again.

*sniffle* I'm just gonna end it here.

I'm begging you. Please...

Don't tell Hobi.

V's entry...

End."