Allegiant: Secret Ending

Her Sacrifice

Tobias

For the next week, I wandered around in a daze. I only talked to people who talked to me, and even then, kept the conversations short. My mind kept wandering to the hospital bed where Tris lay, her fate undecided. This time though, she would have no choice. I used every free second of time I had to go to the hospital, gazing at her body, laying there, helpless.

For the first time, I resented her for being so brave. For going in to the Weapons Lab instead of her brother and just for being so stubborn that she would risk herself and not him, the person who betrayed her before and was sentenced to death. I stop myself there. I shouldn't be thinking like that. I promised that I would try to forgive Caleb, if she did. The Abnegation teach that sacrifice is a showing of love, and one should not turn that down, even if it can be considered selfish. It is the ultimate showing of love, and that should not be taken lightly. Tris has forgiven Caleb, and I should too.

Every aching moment hurts, and I remember Tris, in all her glory. I remember Tris, climbing off of the net and my astonishment that a Stiff was the first jumper. Her beauty, the way she could make me feel like I was strong, even though I felt so damaged, broken beyond repair. I remembered her frame, so petite and bird-like. So much that I expected her to just take flight, right then and there. The way she could light up the room, with the fire that burned inside of her, reflecting in her eyes. I was scared that a fire burning that bright was not meant to last.