Don't even know why I'm writing this but yet I find myself on my phone writing my feelings out.. is it because I don't have friends? funny is I do. But... well.. I guess they're not really my friends.. they probably talk to me because they feel bad for me or because.. of something else.. but thing is I feel isolated from the world.. yess I do know people and talk to them but why do I feel like a stranger to them? Why don't I feel that someone actually cares about me? Why do I feel that I'm still in my past?
Yeah, I've changed... I began to hate people that act all tough, began to felt jeleousy of girls who are pretty and I'm still here looking like the same 15 year old girl I was..is my past haunting me? Why can't I be just like any normal 17 year old girl ... why does it have to be this way?.. I wish that one day I would actually feel confident, happy... beautiful... really hate this feeling... I've kept this feelings for years.. that my parents don't even know my life growing up.. and what I'm still going through.. they think I'm just a happy girl because I smile.. but reality is I'm broken inside.. crying rivers of tears that won't stop falling..
I just hope my life doesn't remain the same.. because if it does.. I'm afraid of what I'll do.. but I believe that'll get this though.. because I know there's someone out there that truly cares about me.. that loves me for who i am.. outside and inside.. I really hope not to fall again.. I really hope..
