MEMOIRS

Chapter 20

Unwantingly, I turned to face Shane. He was standing a few feet away from us beside his silver Audi showing that he happened to come over there by chance. But I know better. He was wearing a black shirt and denims. I just couldn't avoid to inwardly appreciate how good his hair looked in the sunshine. His blonde- brown hair turned glistening auburn as if he just dyed his hair. I gave my head a little shake to think straight. Stop acting like a foolish girl drooling over an angel like looking demon.

Instead of looking at me. Shane's gaze was locked at Zac. I couldn't miss the disgusted expression on his face as if he was some super-hot looking discipline inspector whose work is to catch the couples making out on the campus. Immediately a wayward blush surfaced on my cheeks at the thought of us almost making out in the parking lot. I have to think of something good to make up to Zac for what I just did. Boy, I could never forget the expression that he was wearing when I pulled away. But I couldn't be thinking about it right now. My attention was required at something more important that was happening right there in front of me.

Shane was still looking at Zac as if I wasn't even present there. I turned to look at Zac who looked hurt but mostly- if I was not wrong- taken aback and tensed. Why would he be tensed? I thought they had sorted it out that day at my room. Something's wrong between the two that is fishy and I don't have a damn idea about it. It was frustrating. I wanted to ask Zac about what was happening but something inside me stopped me from speaking out.

I looked back at Shane. He had the same disgusted expression on and trust me it was frustrating. As always, his expression sucked at conveying what he was thinking. Now I could see where he uses all his pride and attitude. He uses them all in his expression. That same old disgusted or bored expression. I rolled my eyes at the thought and if I am not wrong then I saw his eyes flicker to me. Duh, his suffocating problem with being rolled eyes at. It was then that I actually looked into his eyes. His honey brown eyes looked darker like the color of the logs set on fire. If I hadn't looked into his eyes then I would have really thought that the vice- chancellor had made him the discipline proctor but it wasn't so. His eyes looked raw with anger, and I'm so positive, I could saw traces of jealousy in his eyes. Now, I was absolutely sure that something was seriously wrong and it felt like somewhere it had to do with me too. The way Shane was looking at Zac it was absolutely not normal. It was like he was claiming some stake. But over whom, me? The way it was expected for him to do in case of Zac kissing Bethany. What is it happening? It's impossible. I swallowed a lump down my throat. It was so exasperating to stand in the middle of the parking lot like that and not knowing what was happening, when I too was a part of the whole drama.

"What are you-" Before Zac could even complete his sentence Shane cut him in the middle. "Wasn't this being the very dialogue that you shared with us after Bethany humiliated Hale in the restaurant in front of everyone?" Shane spit with utmost coolness but I could sense the anger boiling behind his words.

His words came to me as a big blow knocking all the air from my lungs. Zac said something like that? I don't believe it. I looked at Shane hoping him to give away something that would go against his statement, but he didn't. Although as if it matters. I know he's lying. Zac can never say this. It's impossible. He loves me. He said that he was angry at Bethany for treating me like that. I don't trust Shane. I trust Zac. I know Zac would never lie to me, at least about this. I remember it, he looked so genuine and so honest when he said it to me.

I turned to look at Zac expecting him to look confused, annoyed, angry at Shane for lying so blatantly. But Zac was staring at Shane with a stoic face. His eyes were wide open as if he had seen a ghost. His jaws looked tense. What does that mean? Does that mean Zac was...no. I almost gasped. Stop thinking that way. This is what Shane wants. He wants me to doubt my feelings for Zac.