Amazed

13

She was cuddling into him. Rocky had gotten scared and began to cuddle with Gray, right next to me. I moved away from them, trying to put some distance between them and me.

Rocky looked really pretty today. I loved seeing her with her hair up and in sweats. She was at her most natural, and I loved to see her wavy, messy hair without any styling. She was beautiful without even trying, but just like every other girl, she had fallen for Grayson. Grayson was the better twin, and it showed in everything we did.

Not being able to stand it anymore, I rose from the couch and moved away from them. I headed to my room, and flopped down onto my bed. I groaned into my pillow; a sign of defeat.

Rocky was falling head over heels for Grayson, and he was falling for her too. I was just her friend. She'd never know how amazing it felt knowing that I was the first one she thought to text when she had a nightmare late at night, and how happy I was when she had asked me to come over. It felt right to have her in my arms, but she'd never know just how great it felt.

I heard my door open, but I didn't look up. A silent minute dragged by, and I heard it close. I sighed, happy that I could mope alone.

"What's wrong, E?"

I spoke to soon.

I groaned again and rolled to a sitting position, facing Cameron. Her eyebrows were scrunched up in concern.

"Nothing," I told her.

The concern left her face as she rolled her eyes. "That's a lie." She flopped down on my bed, facing me. "Tell me what's really on your mind."

I didn't want to. I really didn't want to. Cameron could go tell Grayson, and that'll contradict everything that I told him about hooking them up. Or she could go straight to Rocky and tell her. Girls tell each other everything.

I couldn't hold this in forever though. Someone had to know, and my sister was offering to listen.

I sighed in frustration. "Fine. But you have to promise not to tell anyone if I let you in on this secret."

"Depends on what it is."

"Cameron."

"Fine I promise not to tell," she said, rolling her eyes. Her lips curved into a smile soon after.

"So, you know how Rocky and Grayson are getting close?" I asked. I could feel my mouth becoming dry, and my heart leapt to my throat. Was I ready to admit this? Because saying it out loud made it true, instead of it being some random thought in my head.

"I think everyone does. Do you think they know they both like each oth-"

"I like Rocky."

She stopped, and stared at me with wide eyes. My words were unexpected, and I felt a little smug at her expression. Serves her right for thinking she knew me so well. "Are you serious?"

"Dead serious."

"Holy crap," she breathed, and leaned back onto the bed.

I looked at my covers and muttered a "yeah".

A hand on my shoulder caused me to look up. Cameron's face was sympathetic and serious. "You should've seen this coming. You guys like the same girls all of the time."

I groaned and rolled my eyes. "I know."

"You should go for her."

I felt my jaw drop. "What?"

"Do it," she encouraged. "Rocky doesn't know what she likes right now. She's new to everything. Her mind could change, E."

"But I already promised that I'd help Gray get with her," I explained.

"Well you can't do that. Just let them figure it out for themselves. One thing's for sure, is that time can change people."

I didn't say anything. I didn't want to admit that that answer didn't make me happy, and that I was too impatient to wait. Being with her was like setting food in front of a starving man, but telling him he couldn't eat it.

"I can see her falling for you, E. Take her out somewhere, without Grayson."

"Like Victoria's Secret?" I asked.

She gasped and whacked my arm. I jumped and held my now throbbing arm. "Ow! What was that for!?"

"You're too young for that stuff! Also that's something you do if you've been dating for a long time, not a first date!"

"You said it was a good idea!"

"For couples that have been together for a long time," she groaned, sighing in annoyance. "Good thing I caught you before you made a horrible mistake."

I rolled my eyes. "Then what do you suggest? She hardly talks to me. Grayson knows more about her than I do."

"Take her to the movies, or a book store. She'll love it."

"The book store? Really?"

"She spilled to me while we were watching a movie that she loved reading and needed new books. She'd be so happy if you took her."

"How do I go somewhere without Grayson noticing?"

"I'll distract him. Don't you worry about it," she told me.

This could actually work. I could have a chance with Rocky, and I'll be happy. I still felt a little guilty about doing this to Grayson, but I can't help what I feel. She was just so down to earth and a genuine girl. She was a rare find in the world today.