The Untold Truth

Chapter 8: "We have a lot to talk about... a lot."

-Stiles-

It's been exactly 15 hours since Derek has told me that he loved me. I didn't answer. I know, ridiculous right. But the thing is, I don't know what I am to be completely honest. By that I mean like I don't know if I'm gay, bisexual, straight, whatever. I mean, I've always had an attraction towards men but I'm pretty sure if any guy sees another guy that looks nice, he'll say in his mind or out loud "dude looks awesome". Except with me it's more like "dude looks awesome, especially his face; I wonder if he's got something packing;' but I haven't thought like that for a while towards anyone because of all of this werewolf nonsense. Although, something happened to me during the time I was missing. Something big! So big that the people who had something to do with what happened to me, wanted me to never leave because they'd think something bad would happen. I just don't want to explain why I didn't say "I love you too" or explain how I got into Derek's dream to anyone, especially Derek.

So I'll just walk down the hallway to my next class, meet up with Scott and hopefully not talk about the situation between Derek and I. Last night I had 10 missed calls from Scott. 10 fricking calls. Wait, hold on. That's Derek right there! How does he know which is my next class. I'm most definitely going the other way. If it means having to avoid Derek by being late to my next class, so be it.

"Stiles!" Shit, shit, shit. "Hey Derek. Sorry I had to leave so urgently my dad--"

"Stiles, I'm a wolf. I heard your heart beat.It was incredibly deafening and I've always been able to hear your heart beat from a mile away." Oh my god. Do I really look like this much of an stupid asshole. If it was Lydia I would've honestly said it back but my feelings for her have been slowly slipping away. I'll just stand here quietly like a complete idiot. "Uh, you should get to class. We have to talk about a lot. So, meet me at the Hale house? After school?' Yep, I'm just gonna nod like I have a speech impediment. I already know what he's gonna do. "Alright." And there's the kiss on the forehead. Of course I'm blushing. Oh my god, Derek is so sweet. I can tell that I'm hurting him and now it's hurting me. I could see Danny looking at Derek and I. When I got to class and sat at my usual desk, I heard Danny talking to Greenberg saying, "I mean, does your cousin kiss you on the forehead? No, right?" At least that's one thing that's been able to make me laugh.

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After school, I headed to the Hale house. Dreading every step I made. But I wanted to speak to Derek. Well, let's just say I needed to speak to Derek. Even though it sounds crazy, I'd rather we talk about the love situation. I wouldn't know what to say but I'd rather talk about that than admit everything. The door opened almost immediatly once I stepped onto the porch. "Hey, Stiles. How was school?" I wasn't just going to awkwardly answer and I just wanted to get it over with so I said, "Fine. What did you want to talk to me about?" "Oh yeah, well I wanted you to know that you don't have to worry about saying I love you back because it was just something I wanted to tell you." He's so sweet. A side of him I've been able to bring out.

"Derek, I--" "No, Stiles let me do the talking. I'm not really known for having a soft side but it's something that I can always feel comfortable being around you. I don't know what it is about you that makes me go crazy. But not for sex. No, that's not what I crave. I crave your love, your smile, your laugh, your sarcasm, your kisses. I've honestly never felt like this. Yes, I've been in love before but I've always been confident in my feelings. With you, it's more like I get butterflies around you. Serious pitter patter stuff. My heart races and all of that sensual stuff." He took a breathe and looked at me. "Now you can speak." I sat there quietly trying gather words together. "Derek, I didn't say anyhting back and rushed off because right then and there, I felt that we were getting close and I didn't want to hurt you. Just because I carry so much baggage. And I'm extremely confused. Maybe not as confused as you are. Have you ever even been with a guy? That's besides the point. I'm a lot to deal with. You'd always get annoyed with me so what's being in a relationship going to change?"

"I can't believe you think this all started from the dream. It's been since day one that I've had a crush on you. My feelings continued to grow since then. The first day you saw me, I saw you with Scott and a feeling came to me that I've never felt towards another guy." All this information is making Lydia become a distant memory. The new Derek got to me. But there was a feeling of lust and love. Lovst? All I know now is that it's way stronger than anything I've ever felt with Lydia. True and honest love. "Derek, I love you." Derek did nothing but stand up. I thought that he was just going to say okay then kiss me and leave but no. He did the cutest thing that I've ever seen. He slowly knelt down on one knee and said, "Stiles Stilinski, will you do me the honor and be my boyfriend?" Derek grinned at me and I grinned right back. "You don't don't have to do that you big lug." I jumped on top of him and we both fell, him under me, laughing and looking into each other's eyes. We didn't stand though. We layed there. "But hey can I ask one more thing?" Not thinking anything I said, "Yeah, of course."

"How did you get into my dream?"