Badass

Chapter 6

The car ride was tense and silent and I stared out the window my music blasting in my ears, Matt just stared ahead his body tense and his eyes tired and defeated, he had broken he had that same look they always eventually got when they became fed up with me, I had only been here three days and he was already throwing in the towel.

" I want to have a talk with you when we get home Casey I don't want to fight with you I just want to talk to you," I ignored him and just stared out the window. We pulled up into the house and max and David were waiting on the porch for me with relief and happiness on their faces, as much as I hated to admit it they were growing on me.

" Your ok !! You scared us half to death!!" they both threw their arms around me in bone crushing hugs.

" Of course I'm ok you idiots ," I might have been harsh but I hugged them back, I was starting to have a soft spot for the idiot brothers.

" What happened to you ? Your dad told us you got admitted to the hospital ," I slung my bag over my shoulder and shrugged.

" Drug over dose ," their mouths flew open and I just rolled my eyes and walked into the house.

" Don't act so surprised its not the first time I went a little over board ," I went into the living room and slumped down into the couch waiting for Matt to walk in and "talk" with me. He came in and closed the door, he looked just how my mom has looked for as long as I can think, he looked tired and defeated and his eyes were worn and disappointed like always.

" Casey I ...." he sighed and sat down heavily looking at me tiredly.

" Sweetie I just .... I don't understand, why you think I would want you to change ," I blinked at him shocked, did he really just say that ?

" What I meant when I said that was, your just so different from what you were it's hard to think that you were like that and it's just confusing to see how drastically you changed. I get your not that girl but there is still some of it somewhere, that's all your mom wanted was to have some of that... but I would never want to change you ," he came over and sat down next to me I just stared at him speechless.

" Casey I understand why your so upset with me, but I do love you Casey your still my daughter still my little girl ... I know you think I don't love you but I do, all I ever wanted for you was to be happy that's all I ever wanted for you, I didn't ever think that you would be so unhappy though and... I'm sorry for that ,"

I love you the way you want to Casey and I hope that you see that I never intended to hurt you like I did ... and do what ever it takes to make it up to you for it, but I promise I will never try to change you Casey ," then he encased me in his arms hugging me tightly to his chest.

Then I did something I haven't done in years, I cried. I cried out all the bottled up emotion that I thought I had pushed down and locked away, no one had ever said that to me, not even my mom she had tried to change me into what she wanted without even knowing it, and here was this guy that I thought that knew nothing about me saw right through me, and the guy I hated more than anything understood me the most. My shoulders shook and my whole body trembled, Matt just held me closely and let me cry my eyes out on his shoulder.

" It's ok baby girl, it's ok shhhh ," I squeezed my eyes shut trying to make the tears stop coming but they wouldn't.

" It's ok Casey, I'm always here for you, you may not think it but I love you sweetheart ," he kissed the top of my head and ran his fingers gently through my hair starting to rock me gently. It felt like for once someone cared actually cared about how I felt and I felt relieved that someone finally thought about me. I just cried until the tears ran out and I got so tired that I fell asleep in Matt's lap.