New Beginnings. (Jiam AU)

Chapter 11.

Jade's POV

"Aren't you going to let us in?" Leigh says once more, and I sigh, giving the girls a nod. I step to the side, allowing them to come in.

I put Jayla down to stand on her feet. "Go check if nana needs any help, alright?" I mumble, and she gives me an understanding nod before trotting off to the kitchen.

I look back at the girls, an apologetic frown on my lips. "Girls, I'm so sorry. I've needed time to think, and I'm so sorry I left..." I ramble.

Perrie smiles at me, placing a hand on my shoulder. "It's alright, baba. I understand."

"What we don't understand," Jesy speaks up, "Is why you hid all of these things from us. We're your family, Jade. You know that we're always here for you, right?"

I look down, quietly nodding. I knew what they wanted, and I reluctantly wanted to tell the girls, too. I just felt like they wouldn't understand. I needed someone to talk to, though. Although Perrie knew half of the story about Jayla, I felt as if she wanted to know everything. Jesy and Leigh deserved to know, too.

"Sit down, girls," I mumble, sitting on the edge of the couch in the living room, "I have a story to tell."

My three bandmates quickly agree, finding their own places on the couch that held so many memories.

"It all started when I auditioned for the X Factor for the first time,' I start, nervously mumbling. As I spoke each word, it felt better than the first. It was as if I was reliving the memories I had shared with the one person who was the cause of my sadness as well.

2008

"I had to make a hard decision, girls." Cheryl says, a frown curved upon her lips as she looks from a girl to me. Although it was my first time on the X Factor, I knew that I was good enough to get through. I keep my hands behind my back, crossing my fingers in any way possible.

"I'm sorry, Jade. I'm going to have to send you home." The woman says apologetically as a tear rolls down my cheek. My dreams were crushed. What would everyone back home say? What would happen to Liam and I? Did he make it through the Judges' Houses? About a million different thoughts run through my head. I walk out of the room where the final decision was made, and call the only person I could think of. Liam.

He picks up after the first ring, which isn't surprising at all. "Jade?" He sniffles.

I furrow my brows at the sound of his voice. Was he crying? "Baby, don't cry." I try my best to keep from crying myself, as hearing him made me even more sad.

"I didn't make it..." He cries softly. Even through the phone, his voice was as clear as day. He didn't make it. We both were going home, away from each other.

At that point, I start to cry harder, shaking my head as if he was in front of me. "What's going to happen to us, Liam?" I sob, silently praying for the answer I had wished for.

My prayers went unheard, as he emotionlessly responds on the other line.

"I think it's best if we just go home and forget about each other. Goodbye, Jade."

I remember the walls closing in on me, and I had nobody to help me. I was alone.

****

Going home from the X Factor was probably the hardest part. Along with telling my mam that I had lost, I also had to tell her about... him. I could barely even think about his name, or how he looked like, with his bright smile and full cheeks.

I was forced to tell my mam about him, with his loving embrace, tender kisses, and strong arms. I told her everything, even about that night we shared. I couldn't say she was too happy about it, but after what I had described him as, she came to the conclusion that he had used me.

Goodness, I hated thinking about him. It was like it triggered something within me that caused me to stop what I was doing and stare off into the distance, thinking if he was doing alright.

Of course he would be. He's happy, without me.

I was right, as a couple of weeks later, when I had gone to London with a couple friends for my cousin's wedding, I see him at the mini mart with another girl, looking absolutely smitten. That was like us. He acted like his old self around her, and that was what forced me to storm out of

the store with tears rushing down my cheeks.

He had someone else. He never loved me.

I had forced myself to get over him, and I did.

It only lasted for a short while, anyway.

A couple of weeks after my close encounter with Liam, I had discovered something that would probably either ruin my life or make it seem better.

It all started on a sunny day in the middle of the week, September, to be exact. Scratch that, the sun wasn't out. It was raining, as usual. I wasn't feeling any better, and the weather matched my mood. I had gone back to school about a month ago, living my normal life. There wasn't anything normal about my life, anyways.

I was feeling sick for the past week or so, and I blamed it all on the weather. Heck, the weather had nothing to do with how I was feeling, but that was the only thing I could blame.

I was sat on the couch in my pajamas when I felt a wave of nausea wash over me. "Not again," I mumbled to myself. I had been throwing up for weeks now, and I refused to see a doctor. It was probably just the flu, right?

I get up from my position on the couch and rush up to the bathroom, kneeling before the toilet and emptying the contents of my stomach into it. It was the third time this week. I felt so sick.

After throwing up repeatedly, I eventually finish, sitting on the floor of the bathroom with my knees pulled up to my chest. I clean up a couple minutes afterwards, and open the door to exit the room. I see my mam right outside, with her arms crossed over her chest.

"I think it's time we see a doctor, baby girl."

I couldn't say no to that.

****

Me mam had scheduled me an appointment on a Saturday, so that I didn't miss any more classes. I remember not being able to sleep on Friday night. I was terrified. What if there was something wrong with me? What if I had more than just a flu?

My calls and texts to Liam went unanswered for the past month, and I gave up trying to contact him a week ago.

So there I was, sat on a chair on a Saturday morning. Terrified was an understatement. My mum sat next to me, reading a magazine when my name is called.

"Thirlwall, Jade?" The nurse at the door says.

I smile at the nurse and make my way to the door, with my mum following behind me.

After a couple tests, I sit in the doctor's office, fumbling with my fingers as I look down at my lap. Based on the look on the doctor's face, it seemed like more than a flu.

It couldn't be more than a flu. I was already failing my classes, I couldn't miss any more.

At last, the doctor comes in, a small smile on her lips.

"So it looks like you don't have the flu after all, Jade." she says, without a hint of sarcasm in her voice.

A wide smile curves upon my lips as I look from my mam to the doctor. "Really?"

"Yes," she says, nodding at me with a polite smile. "You're pregnant. Congratulations, Jade."

My smile instantly fades, and I look at the doctor in disbelief. "P-Pregnant?"

At that point, I felt my heart shatter just a little bit more than it already was.

(WOO. Long chapter is finally out! I hope you guys like it, I'm sorry I've been so busy. I've been going through a lot lately, so show me some love! Comment and vote! I love you all! x)