Behind The Unseen Stars

Chapter Twenty-One Planning

It had been about two months' since Luca gave me that file. We were still looking for my father, there had been no further contact. I just knew that he had to be keeping his place hidden from us.

I was worried. Luca had doubled up all the guards on me and our daughter, he put some on the boys but not as much as he did on me and our daughter.

Wherever I went I felt like I had an army following me. That was okay, if that was the price I had to pay to keep my family safe, I would do it.

Me and my daughter were out in the garden, we were picking flowers to fill the bouquets around the cave. It was one of my daughter's favorite things to do.

It was one of our favorite things to do, I watched as our daughter ran back and forth picking roses and dropping them into baskets.

She always had to pick the roses first and if I told her we weren't doing roses that day the look of sadness on her face made me change my mind. We just had to plant more of them.

"Hope, can you run these baskets inside and grab two more please?" I turned and asked my daughter.

"Of course, Mommie!" She grabbed both baskets in her little arms and took off running for the cave. I know that she was eleven but she was just so small.

I turned back around and kept clipping away at the flowers humming a little tune that my Gran used to sing to me, before I knew it I was singing.

I have heard so many things about you, I wish I didn't have to hear all of them. I wish you were here to tell me, all your story's, all your secrets, all about you. I will never know you like I should have. I will never know your touch, I will never know who you could have been, I will never know your heart or your mind.

So I will stay here wishing an empty wish. Wishing on stars that will never grant my wish. My heart is broken, it can never be mended. Everytime that I wish another empty wish another piece brakes. Why do I keep wishing an empty wish? Why do I? I will never stop wishing for this empty wish.

I keep walking down this same rod, will it ever end? I keep think about you, you were taken before I could even know you. Why oh why, did you leave me? Why oh why, didn't you stay? Why oh why, must this hurt? Why oh why, is there love?

So, I will stay here wishing an empty wish. Wishing on stars that will never grant my wish. My heart is broken, it can never be mended. Everytime that I wish another empty wish another piece brakes. Why do I keep wishing an empty wish? Why do I? I will never stop wish for this empty wish.

I know now you never wanted to go... the love I have only grows the more I know.

Love is everlasting, even if it is an empty wish.

She told me the song was by The Author and it was called Empty Wish.

And it made me cry every time I sang it, it reminded me of my Mother and now my Gran.

But it also made me happy, because every time I sang it I got memories and they were good memories. I found that I was singing it a lot more than I have ever sang it before.

I looked around trying to figure out where Hope was, she was usually back by now. She would always try to sing the song with me.

But she wasn't anywhere to be seen, "Hope!" I screamed out as load as I could.

My guards immediately stood at attention, half of them stayed with me, the other half were in search of my daughter.

I was trying not to have a panic attack but it was getting harder and harder to breathe. You may think that I'm overreacting with everything that has gone on, I don't think I am.