Reasons To Stay Alive

(What helps me stay alive)

So... I'm feeling pretty crappy right now, and trying to battle suicidal thoughts again, so I decided to make a list of the things that keep me going when things start to get bad.

- long, hot showers

- chocolate

- listening to TØP while doing algebra and/or physics, or just studying in general

- watching Mr. Robot and Grey's Anatomy

- talking to my little sister about her imaginary friends (she's quite funny)

- reading

- listening to spoken word poetry

- writing (always helps me survive life in general)

- hiding away from the world just for a few days, sleeping, until I'm able to face everything again.

- long walks alone and observing the city/nature

- coffee shop dates alone (I always bring my notebook along)

- drinking tea

- going to the library

- thinking about my future, when I'm out of school, at university - a clean slate.

- sometimes laughing and joking around with my silly friends helps too

- oh, and did I mention chocolate? And ice cream? And food in general? Especially Oreos with warm milk

- watching the sun set, cloud watching, star gazing

- running in the rain... it's an amazing thing to do

- yoga always calms me

- attempting to meditate (am slowly getting there, it's a tough one...)

- sleeping helps, whenever I'm actually able to shut my mind down

- daydreaming

- reading some more

- shopping I guess, too

So yeah... can't think of more stuff.
Idk why I'm even doing this...