Broken Hearts & Lonely Stars(girlxgirl)

Chapter Ten: Tears of a Heartless Soldier

Broken Hearts & Lonely Stars:

Chapter Ten: Tears of a Heartless Soldier

           "We're almost done, sweetie."

I nodded, not wanting to think much at the time as I stared at the ceiling. I did my best to listen to the music blaring into my left ear, concentrating on the lyrics with every might I had but the dread that was eating me slowly took away any energy in me. The dread of this day made my palms get sweaty and nothing in this world could take away this feeling. Maybe it was God punishing me for the sins I committed. Maybe the Devil really wants my soul and would do anything to take it.

The smell of alcohol filled my nose, making me wince as I watched the same nurse dab swabs moistened with alcohol to the other patient who laid on the hospital bed before. She was pretty with her colorful scarf wrapped around her head. Dark circles underneath her closed eyes, her fragile, skinny body covered in denim jeans and a violet turtle neck shirt. She looked young probably in her early twenties...though somehow familiar. She hardly flinched when the nurse inserted the needle in her forearm.

I closed my eyes, plugging in the other earphone as everything around me zoned out. Lyrics and beats filled my mind as the pain in my abdomen suddenly clawed at me. I clenched my jaw tightly, my fists trembling at my sides as I felt sweat start to form on my forehead. The feeling of being drowned in my own pain numbed me as I hated myself for not letting anyone see how much agony I was in. Maybe I was that messed up to keep everything inside, ticking away like a time bomb before I lash out on some.

My earphones were ripped out of my ears as numerous hands touched my neck, opening my eyelids only to blind me with a bright light. Something wet was placed on my forehead, wiping away the sweat slowly rolling down my face.

"Let go, Miss Daniels," someone told me, trying to pry my fingers open. "We'll be giving you anesthetics to subside the pain. Now, please. Let. Go."

I shook my head violently, hissing through my teeth as the pain kept rolling in. Something was beeping rapidly at the same sync of my heart pounding violently against my chest.

"Doctor!" Someone yelled as the music flaring from my earphones kept going.

Why couldn't they just leave me alone? I dealt with this pain by myself for a long time, I don't need anyone.

"Miss Daniels, this is Dr. Rodriguez," the raspy voice whispered through my havoc. "I'll be massaging your abdomen and tell me where it exactly hurts."

I could feel his fingers pressing down lightly below my ribcage and as he traveled lower, I yelped. It felt like thousands knives were being stabbed into me at the same time. My breath was taken away as my senses faded, leaving me enclosed from the world. I watched as Dr. Rodriguez's face hover above mine, his lips moving quickly but I didn't hear nothing. My eyes traveled to the girl in the other bed, her gray eyes drinking me in with a familiar look that I hated: Sympathy.

I glared at her only to receive a frown as she laid back her head onto the pillow, clutching a teddy bear close to her. Taking deep breaths and tearing my gaze away from her, I did my best listening to the doctor and nurses as they frantically injected into the tube that was inserted in my arm.

But I couldn't hear nothing. Everything was spinning as my head throbbed mercilessly as I tried to grasp onto reality before succumbing into my dreams of endless pain and sorrow. As much as I tried to resist my heavy eyelids to stay open, my body eventually won. The anesthetics kicking in as I fell into my dark abyss where a little girl of my childhood years appeared, her sad eyes showed nothing but the betrayal she dealt with throughout her life...