sick of losing soulmates || t.j + d.c

「twelve」

—marley—

"what do you mean i'm leaving?" i asked my mom.

"i realized that i cannot care for you and lillie so you both are going to live with your father." my mother explained.

"no." i said.

"excuse me but you don't have a say in this. once i'm better and have my life back on track you guys can come back." she said.

"i'm glad you're trying to get sober but i'm not going to live so far away from my friends!" i said.

"c'mon mar, don't give me hard time. lillie already said she was fine with it."

i took a deep breath in. once tyler and i make up i have to go across the state? that's just not okay in my mind.

"n- fine." i gave in. there was no point of arguing. i knew i would have to leave whether i liked it or not.

"good. you guys have to be packed by the end of the month." my mom said.

"alright."

i walked up to my room and laid on my bed. i pulled my phone out. might as well tell brendon.

marley
hey i have some bads news.

brendon :)
what is it?

marley
i'm moving in with my dad :(

brendon :)
really :(
marley
why?

marley
my mom is trying to get sober, which is great
but she thinks it is best when we aren't there
she also realized that she cannot care for us.

brendon :)
that's good.
i mean it's sad you moving but good
that your mom is trying to get better

marley
i know :( i've gotta go. see you tomorrow?

brendon :)
okay see you

i let out a breath. i really didn't want to move.

.::::.

i shot up out off bed when i saw the time.

"shit." i had overslept.

i quickly ran over to the basket of my clean clothes. i pulled out a yellow dress (dodie yellow). i put it on and quickly went onto the bathroom. my hair was curled already but it's a mess so i did a half up half down look. i did my make up pretty fast and to my surprise it didn't look bad at all. i brushed my teeth then i put my glasses on and ran back into my room. i grabbed my yellow converse and put them on. i ran downstairs grabbed my jean jacket and book bag. i heard brendon's car horn. i quickly grabbed a rubber band and my phone.

"bye guys!" i yelled and left.

i jogged over to brendon's car and quickly got in.

he gave me a weird look. "why did it take you so long?"

"i woke up late." i told him.

his mouth made an 'o' shape and he back out of my drive way.

.::::.

we got to the school the time we usually get there. we got out of the car and i realized how hot it was.

"oh my god it's so fucking hot."

"i know." brendon said using his hand as a fan.

we were about to get into the building but we got stopped by the group. which was more of nia.

"your dress is too short sweetie, i think you need to change or you'll end up having more guy friends. if you don't know what that means, it means that you look slutty today." nia said making jenna laugh.

"yeah i tried to match your style." i said.

"woah marley don't say that about my girlfriend." josh said.

"then maybe she should leave me alone. it's not that hard to keep your mouth closed," i said then i looked at nia, "that may be a bit hard for you."

jenna giggled.

"oh fuck you." nia said.

"that goes for you too jenna." brendon said.

i looked up at him and smiled.

"well fuck you guys, i hope you guys have a great time having your mouths closed!" i said and walked away with brendon.

"you are such a hot head mar." brendon said while laughing.

"i know." i said smiling.

"man i'm gonna miss your morning roasts." he said getting a bit serious.

"awww" i said and hugged him.

"when is the official moving date?"

"probably the end of the month."

he pouted and we got to homeroom. were they would be. we took our seats and just talked until the bell rang. we walked to gym and it being a monday, i forgot my clothes once again. instead of going into the locker room i just walked over to the side of the gym and stood there. not even a minute later tyler and jenna came a joined me. i stood there as they were eyeing me up and down.

"problem?" i asked.

"um actually ye-," jenna started.

"no." tyler had cut her off.

"um okay?" i said and just stood there fiddling with my yellow note book.

they were whispering about me i could tell by jenna giggling and tyler just telling her to stop. i had an urge to hurt myself. i started to pull the rubber band back and let it hit my skin. the sting of the rubber band had fulfilled the urge. i was hurting myself but there was no permanent damage. this was a little trick my father had taught me after i had told him about my selfharm. it really did work. it had helped me stop and i became clean. as the snapping sound made an echo in the semi-empty gym, i heard tyler whisper to me.

"mar?" i looked at him.

"stop" he mouthed to me.

i shook my head and kept letting the rubber band nip at my skin. i looked at my wrist. it was now red where the rubber band was placed. tyler had placed his hand on my wrist. i saw a rubber band on his wrist. i looked at him. i had no clue. does he really? or maybe he just wears one for the heck of it. i don't think so. i really hope he doesn't actually hurts himself.

i really hope he doesn't.

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so the reasons i haven't been putting a/n's at the end of the past few chapters was to try and keep suspense. it prolly didn't work lol. anyways, hoped you enjoyed this chapter!