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four

I approached the school and saw Alexander with Eliza outside. I rolled my eyes and immediately turned around, trying to avoid them. Suddenly, Alex came up behind me. "Hey John! Why didn't you come up to me?" He said cheerfully.

"You were with Eliza."

"So? I still am going to make time for my best friend."

I shrugged. "Okay." I looked up at Alex, and he jumped.

"I know I'm ugly." I sighed.

"No, no. No. You're not ugly, you just have a black eye and your face is bruised." He said worriedly.

"Oh." I had totally forgotten. "I fell."

"You fell? And that was the result?"

"You know what Alexander? Get out of my fucking business." I threw my arms up.

Alex didn't look surprised that I had cursed. His eyes wandered elsewhere than my face. My arm. His eyes were on my arm. I quickly put my hands behind my back.

"John?" Alex said shakily.

"Alex?" I retorted.

"Can I see your arm?"

"No!!" I screeched. "No you may not!"

"John, don't yell. I'm just concerned." Alex had tears in his eyes.

He looked so distraught, and I couldn't take it anymore. I held out my arm.

"John-" He gasped as he ran his fingers over the cuts.

I winced and pulled my arm back. "What the hell do you want?"

"John." Alex was at a loss for words.

"Is that all you can say?" I yelled.

"I'm just- I'm so worried. Are you okay?" Alex said with big round eyes.

"No! I'm not okay! Why would you even ask that?? I'm gay, my dad doesn't like that. He abuses me nightly. My face? That's his doing." I lifted up my shirt, my skin displaying bruises and cuts. "This? That's his doing too. And as of my arm, I did that! It's just so relieving. It's painful, but it hurts so good." I started to cry, realizing that I had spilled all my secrets to Alex.

Alex stopped breathing for a moment. "John, oh my god. We have to do something."

"No, Alex. No we don't! Nobody can know!" I shouted.

"People have to know. This can't keep going on. You can't keep going like this. I'm afraid that soon you'll be dea-"
Alex was cut off as I punched his face.
I turned to run home, but I didn't want to go home. I paused, realizing where I wanted to go.

Heaven.

And I knew how to get there.

an// all the feels
word count: 420 words