Ghost Friend [2jae]

Day 14

Jaebum

Jackson left.

"I want to watch tape# 6"

Youngjae suddenly said. I haven't watched tape 6 too.

We sat down in the couch and played the tape. The title is...

Let's play

The video started with Youngjae happily smiling at the camera. I caught a glimpse of smile too with the Youngjae that is beside me.

Hello everyone...I'm outside and Im going to play with.*drum rolls*.

Then a kid came to a view about 12 years old.

Yugyeom and his dog

I was suprise. That Yugyeom was here when Youngjae was still living here.

I volunteered to be the president and they have to follow me.hahah

He laugh again. Yugyeom was still a kid back then. He was cute.

Then my eyes fell upon Youngjae beside me. His eyes is always focused at himself and sometimes he mumble words I can't understand.

He is cute.

Why do I keep saying that to a person that is dead?

Well that's the truth isn't it?.

He smiled when he hears himself laughed at the video

My heart aches.

Youngjae doesn't deserve to die this young. He doesn't deserve to lose his memories and more importantly to be left alone.

He misses himself. He miss being alive.

Everytime that I'm with him. I tried....I tried to make him happy atleast. But what can I do to make him happy when I'm just letting him make much more painful memories.

I'm sorry Youngjae.

I can't seem to peel of my eyes out of him. I don't want to say this but its much more better to watch Youngjae personally than in the video. Yes, he might not be breathing. His not warm.

But...

He makes me feel alive.

The last time I touched Youngjae's face was the first time we met. His face passes through my hand.

But...I'm hoping just a little bit...

I made myself closer to him and Youngjae seem fully immersed in the video.

He glows this faint light.
But he have a color.

I move my face just a little bit closer.

But then he turned his head and we came face to face...

"Jaebum..."he softly said.

I look into his eyes and slowly my hand rise up to touch his face.

He seem to look at me curiously then he understand.

My hand never made any contact...

He's just air...

Sadly I sighed...but Youngjae kept in close.

"I can feel it though" He stated.

I looked at him suprise.

"Really?" I ask.

"Not physically... But you're warm" he said. I gave him a small smile.

"I'm sorry Youngjae" I apologize

"What for?" He replied. But I can't answer that. I dont know why I'm sorry too.

"I just feel sorry for you" I said. I hope I didn't insulted him.

He smiled just a little bit.

"It's not your fault...It's not mine too...So we don't have anything to be sorry about...I should be thanking you for helping me. I am just a ghost" Youngjae sadly said.

"But still...You don't deserve this" I said.

"Do I?" He replied.

"From what I see Jaebum...I lived a happy life. In those videos it shown me that I don't have any regrets. Not all people have that much freedom like me. He never felt loneliness. He never felt pain...So I think this is me, the aftermath of having a happy life. It's just another experience Jaebum. Everyone is not an exception to any of this negative things...We all are involved" He explained.

"What I'm just grateful about is...You" He smiled at me.

"Me?" I pointed myself.

"Yes...You that means even if I'm in this state. I'm not an exception to happines too. That's what I think is life Jaebum...And I'm grateful that you bring me happiness." Him saying it like that make me feel more guilty...A litte more sad...

But more grateful and happy.

"I promise Youngjae I will find who did this to you. He will pay" I said a little bit to childish. Knowing we are not even close to knowing the killer.

"I'm not here for revenge Jaebum. I'm here for my memories and..." Youngjae stop midway.

"And?"I ask.

Youngjae was confuse and doesn't seem to remember.

"I just have this feeling that I still have to do something...Something that will make me feel satisfied with my life. Like a missing piece?" Youngjae said.

"You mean Unfinished business?"

Youngjae seem to look at me making me feel Im right.

"I guess something like that?"He replied.

The sound of the t.v interrupted us. The tape is finished.

I took it out. I was about to enter tape #7 when I remembered the file that. Hoseok gave me.

I hurriedly stood up and find it.

There it is.

I quickly came back to Youngjae.

"I remember the real estate gave me some of your files"

I took them out and one by one read them.

"Its your bio data and some bills and some pictures" I said. But nothing seem to help with our situation.

"What's this?" Youngjae ask and point a certain paper.

"Its a missing file" I said and take a look.

Youngjae has been missing for 4 years.

"Youngjae" I called.

"You were missing for four years" I said and he doesn't seem fazed about it.

"No one knows I'm dead?" Youngjae ask.

I shook my head."I think so because if so, Hoseok would have said to me that your dead" I replied.

Well if that's the case then...

Where is Youngjae's body?

I kept looking at the file but none is helpful except for the missing file.

But then I look through the window.

"Let's ask your playmate Yugyeom shall we?"