Ghost Friend [2jae]

Last Day

Youngjae

Hearing Jaebum scream my name in his sleep broke my heart.I did'nt stop crying even if he was asleep.

"Jaebum!Wake up"I shook his body.His eyes opened wide and his breathing got heavy.

"Youngjae!...Youngjae!"He shouted.

"Im here..."I hold his hand and he looked at me.His hands pulled me to a tight hug.

Jaebum was crying hard.I can't help but cry as well.I held onto him tightly.

Now he knows.

"Im sorry Jaebum.If only I did'nt wrote the notes.If only you have'nt seen the tapes.None of this would happen."I cried.

"Your life would have been much more better without me.I should'nt have called for help.Your friend would'nt have died because of me"I cried hard.Both of us cried and held onto each other tightly.Not letting go for a second.

But...Jaebum is injured and I want him to live.

I try to break away but Jaebum tighten more his grip on me.

"No don't!.Don't let go.Don't go away.Don't die again.I can feel your warmth now.I can touch you."Jaebum said.

"If you say that you should'nt have done all of those things you said.Well then I wish I should'nt have lived...I should'nt have live if I can't meet you.I should'nt have live if I can't be happy.I should'nt have Youngjae!"Jaebum cried.

I leaned on him.As much as I don't want to go I have to.I swear there's a million reason's I don't want to go.But the order is not mine to not to.

"Jaebum I want you to look at me."I requested.Jaebum was still crying but obeyed.

He broke the hug but still held on as if afraid I would fly away if he let me go.

"I want you to live."I caress his face and wipe away his tears.I may never touch him like this again so I'll make the most of it.

"I want you to live and move on.I want you to live not for me.But for Jackson.For your friends.For your family"I said.Tears escaped his eyes once again.

"I want you to live for the better of yourself not for me.Its me Jaebum who deserve to not live.Its me
I killed myself because of him.But I did'nt let myself live for the others.If I had chosen the other way I could have never met you.
Cause I know he won't let me.But me being a roaming soul made me meet you.And I was glad and thankful.I can't remember anything but you helped me.I was a ghost but you did'nt run away.I was glad Jaebum... and I was happy.Until now my life is still perfect like those tapes I made.But while Im happy I did'nt know you were sad and miserable.
So now...I want you to be happy and let me go.I want you to live and let me die once again.This time your the one who deserve to be happy not me.I know how deeply hurt you are from what things turn out to be and Im sorry these things wouldn't happend if I wasn't here.Jaebum let me go and be happy"

"How Youngjae.How can I live and be happy when my friend was taken from me and the one that made you kill yourself was actually turn out to be my trusted friend?.How Youngjae?.Your the only happiness that ever happened to me.You made me have a purpose for life for once but now your going away how?"

I smiled.

"Time is not our enemy.He is not cruel too.He let you move and heal your pain.I may not be there nor Jackson but time is there to make you more memories.Much more happier than ours.Much more brighter.But he may remind your nightmares sometimes but the happy memories you had will give you a smile.Because you have something to look back.Because there is a reason for you to smile.
Don't be discouraged.Cause this is not the end."I said smiled at him with tears in my eyes.