may we meet again (bellamy blake)

Earth Kills

I wake up to the sounds of groans. My eyes slowly open and I pull myself from where I was recently laying. My vision clears up and I notice Jasper next to me is the one in pain and remember everything. My energy immediately maxes out and I look to Clarke who is checking on him.

Clarke sees that I have arisen from my much needed sleep and informs me on Jaspers current state, "His pulse is 380." I move my eyes away from her to Jasper and put my hand on his forehead to feel his temperature. He startles me by letting out a loud moan and I quickly take my hand back.

"Go back to sleep!", some one yells from the bottom floor of the drop ship. I turn my head slightly to have my ear face the ladder and let out a huff of breath in anger.

Clarke pulls my attention to her as she leans in to Jasper to whisper, "Don't listen to them. You're gonna make it through this, ok?" I could tell she was also attempting to reassure me.

"Can he just die already?", another person yells from the first level. I clench my fist in aggravation.

Clarke gets up from where she was recently sat and walks off, "Im gonna get clean water. Keep an eye on him." I follow her moves with my eyes until she disappears from view. I put my hand on Jaspers chest just as Monty comes over to sit on the other side of him. My eyes meet his then I am pulled back to my brother as he lets out another moan. I squeeze my eyes shut because it hurts me to see him like this.

Monty puts his hand on my hand that was resting on Jaspers chest. "He's going to be fine."

"I know.. It's just-", I pause trying to come up with the words. "This is all my fault.."

Monty looks at me in confusion, "What? There was nothing you could have done that would have prevented-"

"Thats not what I meant.", I cut him off. Monty raises a brow. "If I was never born, none of this would have happened. He wouldn't even be down here.", I lock eyes with his. "Neither would you." My gaze falls away from Montys to look at his hand on mine.

He cuts himself off this time, "I-"

"Just forget it.", I pull my hand from Montys grasp then lay down and face away from him. I just laid there this time, not able to fall back to sleep. Not even trying to.

After several minutes of being lost in thought and Jaspers moans getting louder after every one, I decide to get up and be helpful. Just in time, too. As Clarke climbs up the ladder with the clean water she went to fetch.

"Sorry, there were some things I had to take care of.", she explains.

She walks over and leans down next to my brother with the water. "Anything I can do to help?", I ask.

Clarke looks at me for a moment before pulling the blanket Jasper was under down to his belt line. She dips a piece of cloth in the water she brought then rings it out before handing it to me. I accept and she takes one for herself. "Gently dab the cloth over his wounds." I nod and do as I'm told. Jasper shifts and groans at the touch of the rags.

Clarke studies the wounds carefully in uncertainty, "The grounders cauterized the wound. Saved his life." I look at her before looking at the wounds again.

"Saved his life so they could string him up as live bait.", Finn joins the conversation. "Garden of Eden, this ain't."

"This is infected.", Clarke informs. "He could be septic."

"Well, what do we do?", I plead.

Clarke glares at Jasper before turning to Monty, completely ignoring my question, "Any progress on using the wristbands to contact the ark?" Monty doesn't answer so she persists, "Monty!"