"Daddy you promise me you would come tonight? Where are you? " my 11 year old self said standing outside in a yellow ball gown with heels that were killing my feet.
"Baby girl I promise I'm on my way right now. My boss kept me over time and I had to rush home and change princess. I'm going to make it to the dance just wait for me outside OK? " he rushed out to me afraid as if I would not wait for him and hate him forever for not showing up at our Daddy Daughter dance we went to every year since I was 4.
"Whatever Dad, just hurry. " I spoke softly then hung up
I wish I never hung up that night.
"Ma look at me. " he whispered softly to me. His warm minty breath brushing against my cheeks and nose.
No.
I shook my head no, my face still heavy with tears.
"Jace baby, please look at me. " he pleaded with me.
I can't do this. I can't keep living like this everyday in a complete darkness with no light. It's suffering day and night, but all it feels like is night.
Cold, dead, night.
I looked up finally, my glossy eyes meeting his light brown ones.
"I'm not gonna force what's wrong outta ya. I just need to know if you are alright. " his thick eyebrows creasing together with a concern look. It was something adorable that had any girl having butterflies.
"I'm not OK. " my voice came out small and broken. I went through all day with people staring and pointing at me. I was just tired right now.
I will never be OK.
"Jace?"
I can't.
"I'm sleepy. Can you take me home? " I looked to him feeling small like a child.
He nodded and took off his black hoodie. I didn't understand why he was. It was freezing in this school. Hoodies and jackets are very valuable here.
When he pulled his hoodie over my head for me to wearing I felt warm inside. I knew this moment wouldn't last long, but it felt good as it did. It was so simple, how his hoodie felt more of a home to me than my house.
I looked to him to see him wearing a plain white T-shirt. If close enough you could see the tattoos on his chest. Wow, this boy and his sexy ass tattoos.
"Thank you beautiful. " he looked at me winking.
"Crap. Did I say that out loud? "
"Yea, you did. "
"Can we act like I didn't." I smiled at him giving him hopeful eyes.
"Nope. " he said popping the p giving me a boyish grin. He lifted me off the sink and held my hand as we left the bathroom.
As if on cue the bell rung ending 5th period. People stared at us as we walked to the student parking lot. Oh, I could already hear it now. "Quiet black girl leaving with white hot bad boy. "
"You know ma, you talk to yourself alot. "
"Crap! "
As we made it to his car he opened the door for me to get in. After I was safely in he went to his side to enter the matte black 2013 mustang gt, and we pulled out of the school.
We didn't talk only let the music play, which I didn't mind. His taste in music fit him.
Yeah
