Lethal Lullaby

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A month or so had passed we were now mid-way through April. Matthew, hasn't left my side, he was adamant to stay with me until I felt safe again. Even though he tried to hide his feelings of guilt, I could still see them in his eyes. I didn't bother to try and make him feel better anymore, I had come to find that it just made things worse. So, I just tried my best to ignore it as much as possible and let him heal in his own way in his own time. It was only after the nightmares began to disappear that he felt ok to leave me alone. I did feel a little bit safer, and I was glad that the nightmares had finally ended. But, because we haven't been apart much, I found the short times we spent apart hard to deal with. I would never tell Matthew this, I don't want to make things any worse for him. I was beginning to get back to normal, but things still weren't the same as they had been before.

Before I felt like I couldn't be away from Matthew because of how I felt about him, and I still feel that way but now I don't feel like I am safe unless I am with him. Without him I feel like danger is lurking in every corner, just waiting to strike. When his arms are wrapped around me all those feelings disappear and I feel completely safe. Thankfully my stabbing wound has almost healed up, but it is leaving a scar. I find it disgusting, but Matthew calls it my beauty mark. He is such a sweetheart sometimes, I could cry.

Luckily, Jessica has been on her best behaviour ever since she tried to kill me, I even got an apology from her. Deep down I know she doesn't mean it, but it must have taken a lot for her to do it so I chose to accept it. You must think I'm crazy I mean she almost killed me a month ago and here I was accepting her apology for something so big. But, what other choice do I have she is a part of Matthew's family. I want to be a part of that family which means I must accept Jessica as well. I know Matthew still doesn't fully trust her, his one rule is that I'm never to be alone with her. He says it's only a precaution, but I know under that bravado of his he was still worried she might try something. But, I don't want to be afraid anymore. I hate being this little weakling of a human that can't protect herself. I want to be a devil, deep down I think it's the only way I will survive this new-found world I have stumbled upon. It's not a world fit for a human, but could I convince Matthew of that, of course not.

This school term is flying by, I am looking forward to the summer when Matthew and I can spend a lot of time together without school getting in the way. Considering the not too distant future makes me happy, but there was one dark cloud raining down on my parade and that dark cloud was Satan. Matthew didn't seem to be worrying about it, well at least he hadn't mentioned anything to me. I just wonder how long it will be before he finds out about us. I hope he never does, but I'm not that lucky. All I could do was enjoy my time with Matthew until that day comes, I will savour every single second with him. No matter the consequences, we will stay together.

It had been a pretty ordinary school day, Seth seemed to have gotten over our little disagreement about Hayley thankfully. I guess he couldn't stay mad at me forever and I had gone through a pretty big ordeal. Zac and I were actually friends, and he and Paige had started to date. Now that he had a girlfriend things to seemed to flow better, just like I thought they would. He had finally gotten the message loud and clear, and it made me happy to see them so happy together. Hayley had begun to hang around with Matthew and I and my friends. She didn't seem to be spending much time with their other siblings, at all. And I think Seth is getting used to seeing a different side to Hayley, it seems to have helped him get over his grudge that had been based on just one moment he had experienced with her. Danni seemed a little uncomfortable at first with her, but she isn't the jealous type so she seemed to make do with the situation. In saying that she never left Seth's side and she made it pretty clear that she was Seth's girlfriend. Not that Hayley took any notice, I don't think Seth was her type and Seth just couldn't get a girl like her.