Friends with Benefits

FRIENDZONE

After we had our dinner we went to my living room. Rolf didn't stop of teasing hanggang pumunta kami sa sala. He keeps on teasing me that he wants to eat me as his dessert. But I just ignoring what he was saying.I occupy one of the couch and sitted there masyado akong nabusog sa nakain kaya diretso ako sa upuan. My jaw dropped when Rolf sit beside me and started caressing my shoulder while kissing.

"Rolf ano ba" I hissed and stop him sa ginagawa niya.

But instead of stopping,,, he just ignored me and continue of what he is doing. "What? I'm just touching you.." he said with his husky voice

'oh shit eto na naman kame' I closed my eyes, I started to focus on breathing.

Breath in

Breath out

I did this a few times until my heart slowed down to a normal rate. I glanced at him and pushed him away. He looked frustrated dahil tinanggihan ko na naman ang paglalandi niya. But this is the only way para huminto siya sa ginagawa niya. Kasi pag hinayaan ko siya mapupunta na naman kami sa bagay na alam naming pareho kaming makakalimot. Kaya kahit mahirap sa parte ko pinigilan ko siya.

"We need to talk Rolf." While looking at him

" Okay" he hissed

"Ikaw pa tong naiinis ei ikaw nga tong nagsabi kanina na mag-uusap tayo after we sleep." Naiinis kong pagkakasabi sa kanya

"Sorry.. Naglalambing lang naman ako sayo......" he said

But before he could say anything. Nag salita na ako

"Ano na tayo?" I asked him.

Napaawang iyong labi niya dahil sa tanong ko. Hindi kaagad siya nakasagot he was too caught off guard to even say anything.

I felt a pang in my chest. Alam ko naman ang dahilan kong bakit. His too much inlove with his girlfriend and he can't even gave to me the relationship that I am wanting for. Alam kong nadala lang siya sa sitwasyon kaya may nangyari sa amin. Ako naman si tanga nagpadala naman sa tukso at sinamantala ang pagkakataon.

"Just forget what I've said." Agad akong tumayo at tumalikod sa kanya. I acted like I was looking for something. I don't want him to see the pain in my eyes at ang pangingilid ng luha ko.

"Umuwi ka na" pagpapatuloy ko

Naramdaman kong tumayo na siya sa kina-uupuan niya. I thought he was leaving already pero hindi, instead he grabbed my arm and hugged me

"We're still friends right?" he asked " 'Yong nangyari sa atin kanin, we both want it naman dba?

"A-ano?"

"Magkaibigan pa rin tayo diba? Kahit may nangyari na sa atin" He repeated the question. "Ano sagot?"

My breathing hitched. I wanted to go out. I didn't want to answer his question because it wouldn't do us any good. He wasn't mine in the first place. He was someone else's and I understand it now or more than ever. Ang sakit lang kasing isipin na no matter what I hide my feelings for him still ipinagsisigawan pa rin ng puso't isip ko na sana mahalin niya rin ako. Na ako nalang sana. Pero malinaw pa sa tubig na kay Veniese siya at never niyang mamahalin ang isang tulad ko.

"Sagot" he said

"Oo naman we're still friends?"

And then my tongue betrayed me by saying this.

And betrayed me some more when I kissed Him.

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        While I'm writing this, naisip kita, kaya this UD is for you