Liberation.

chapter 4

Hope

It's September 3rd, my birthday was 15 days away. Only reason I'm looking forward to it is that I'm going to be two years closer to being 18. I can finally leave and find Ice again, we can be together and nothing will be able to split us up then. For someone two years can be awfully long, yet for me it was just time I was willing to waste. I refused to live my life until I held his face in my hands again, And that was final.

On the bright side though, mommy seemed to understand what me and Ice had when we'd spoken a few days ago. I hadn't really thought about talking to momma though, I didn't want another spat with her right now. What mommy told me, about their plans for adoption and everything after that, it really made me think. They never replaced me, or stopped loving me either.

So did I have any reason to be mad? To hate them? Did I even hate them to begin with?

So many questions and answers I wasn't sure I wanted to hear yet, life was confusing me right now. I didn't know what to feel, what to think or do. I still thought about Ice, but I also thought about other things. I thought about what I'll do for the next two years, will I go to school? Go on family trips and pretend to live this life? I really didn't know, maybe I should find out.

It was around 3 in the evening, moms were downstairs making dinner. I left my room and came downstairs, I picked my timing just right... please pick up on the sarcasm.  Momma had mommy up on the kitchen counter, they were clearly very busy. I cleared my throat and startled them, momma stepped back and mommy hopped off the counter fixing her blonde hair. Awkwardness was standing beside me, shifting on his feet; I wished he'd go away right now so I could stop feeling so weird with both of them here.

"Hey honey, Watcha need?" Mommy asked breakingthe silence, I shifted and took a breath in. "I was wondering, am I going to go to school or are you going to keep me locked up here forever" I asked trying my best not to sound rude. Mommy was the one to answer me, "we're not keeping you locked up baby" she said, "so if I say i want to go outside, you'll let me?" I asked watching their faces closely. Momma opened her mouth but then closed it again, looking away from me. No surprise there, "well you don't know the area Hope, please understand that momma and I worry. However, if you want we can go for a walk after dinner and I'll show you around?".

Her suggestion was nice, I wanted to go outside. From the times Ice took me outside of the apartment, I loved looking around and seeing the world around me. Feel the Sun on my skin and the wind in my hair, I sounded so cliche but I never had the chance to live a normal teenage life either... perhaps thats what I can do for the next two years, have a go at this.

These two years is all the time i left with my mom's, before I vanish again to find the one thing I'm living for...

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A/N sorry for the lack of updates, I'm back home and I can get back into regular updates for you guys. Hope you enjoy, comment and vote.

Love dazz