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We all get a coffee and sit at a table together, still kinda tired, but this caffeine should wake us up quickly. "Do they still hurt?" I randomly ask. Everyone looks at me as if they don't know what I'm talking about. "What hurts?" V asks, confused. "Y'all's wings..." I say. "Well, it's not as bad as the start, but it still has a little bit of pain still, or is it different for y'all?" Tae asks, looking at the others. Everybody shrugs then nods.

I ask another question, "And since the media already knows and has spread the news, are y'all gonna prove it true later at the concert?" Jin looks at Namjoon with kinda a scared look, then says, "We haven't thought that out yet... Should we?" "What do we have to lose? The world already knows anyways..." Suga says.

"I agree, I think if our ARMYs are truly there for us forever and always, then I think we should tell our secrets like we've always done for them. Anyone with me?" Jungkook says, waiting for anyone to raise their hand... Tae nods then raises his hand, then Jin, then Suga, then Namjoon then everybody else soon afterwards. I decide to raise my hand since I'm practically a part of BTS. "Okay, so we're giving away the deepest secret we've ever kept... As a Bangtan Boy, I will accept my fait to see which of our ARMYs are real and which aren't." Jimin says.

Suddenly, J-Hope starts to explain his feelings, "I know you guys have been so curious as to why I always stare out of the window and stuff like that. Y'all have been wondering why I've been recently in depression, and it's not because I'm the angel of hate... Even though I have changed to the angel of love, I know what's wrong with me." He slightly starts to tear up as he continues, "I just wish we were home, not on Earth, I wish to see my mama again, which I know won't happen unless I die. And I cry so much hoping and wishing that one of these days I will be able to see her, but I know the only way to see her... Death. Death, it seems is the only thing that'll bring you happiness, but it doesn't.

"The only thing that will is the people you hung out with, but never really appreciated. I realize that these wings brought us closer together than we've ever been, and Y/N has helped us come closer than we've ever been.

"Namjoon always calls her his, but she will always be BTS's girl. And these wings mean nothing to me. I don't care about them, but I do care about their purpose: bringing us back together. And like Rapmon said in Save Me, 'I thank you for being us.' I thank all of y'all for being us. I love y'all, and I need y'all more than my mama." Namjoon is sniffling and wiping some tears from his eyes, trying to not get anyone to notice.

Then Jimin starts to talk, "I was recently in a depression too. I couldn't stand the thought of always pushing away the people who only tried to love me and I would never return any love, and I realized that y'all are the only people in the world that I can actually be 'me' around.

"So when we preform a concert, I will try harder to make y'all happier because I have not been doing it for y'all, I've been doing it for me. 'Me' is the only thing I've cared about. My blood, sweat, and tears are the only thing that makes us human, but I feel like together we have way more than that, and no one, nor anything, will ever separate us.

"I don't care that people say 'death that breaks us apart,' because this game that we've been playin' and trying to win, against each other. Death hasn't separated us. Through it all, we have actually acquired a stronger bond with one another.

"No matter what anyone tries, we can't be shattered. We can crack, we can have holes, we can chip, we can bend, but nothing will ever shatter us. We are bulletproof boy scouts, let us make a memory not one person will ever forget. And stop these lies of life have us trapped. I don't want to be a prisoner of lies anymore. I've been caught in a lie for so long and finally feel free as the angel of truth."

Jin nods, "Well said, guys." "I feel like it's my turn." Jungkook says. "Oh man, here we go." Suga says, putting his feet in a chair and kicking back. Everyone laughs then Jungkook continues, "I still am a little depressed, I feel like there is nothing that can erase the spots that have appeared all over my vision, not literally, but it feels like a permeant marker has written 'begin' all over my heart.

"I now realize, as Jimin was talking, that you all make me begin. Smile with me, cry with me, die with me, shine with me, whatever it takes for y'all to realize that us banding isn't just a coincidence, it's fate, destiny, future fortunes, happiness, love. You made me again. You bonded us together. And the only thing that hits me hard, is to see my Hyung's struggles." He starts to cry, which causes Jimin to cry along with V and Jin, J-Hope cries harder.

Tae joins in, trying to not cry harder than he already is, saying, "I have a mark of contained happiness that I haven't revealed since age 9. True happiness, joy, well-being. You all helped me release it finally today. I feel the happiest that I have ever been, and this is, by far, the best moment of my life, besides the day I met y'all for the first time.

"I always like the mark on walls, spray painting, carving words, or it doesn't even have to be words, sometimes, it is just pictures of my past life. I always got drunk in the past, but I finally stopped it, knowing that I should find a job that would give me enough money to get my family back on their feet. I never liked to think about others, I always thought about what I thought would be best for me.

"And now, as the altruistic angel that I always had inside me but never wanted to let out, I've always had it contained, and I feel like it'll always leave a mark inside me that can't be erased or spray painted over, or even scratched off. But, I can just ignore it and try to be a little angel, there will always be something though. There's always some kind of trouble somewhere, and now, you will never walk alone. No one will ever be alone.

"Since we became angels, the angels watch over us at all times, our souls are always with us. You have your 5 senses, so that should be enough, right? No. You need a friend. Someone who, no matter what, will be there for you. May this stigma rub off and be finally out of my life, with the help of my brothers." He starts to cry so hard onto Jimin's shoulder. Jimin comforts him.

Suga sits up and says, "Life is like a piano. You keep it safe, dust it, play it every now and then. At first, you may not be very good, but it'll always get better, the more you learn from your mistakes and such things that'll help you push through the struggles of life. Being the angel of destruction, I felt our relationships have been broken, and now I'm the angel of construction, which is a sign that our relationship is actually better and I realize now that y'all are my first love.

"First things first, I'll never put y'all second. I really act like I don't care at most times, but I really do. Just to try and be swaeg is all I ever care about and I feel like I should be helping y'all more, instead of helping myself. If we are young forever, why don't we enjoy life as we see it fly past us like wings in the wind? We are closer now. And now I'm crying thanks a lot. It's so hard to keep swaeg with me. I'm sorry guys. I love y'all though." He says then sniffles as he wipes a tear out of his eye.

"I'm still a dark angel, so I guess I really don't have much experience yet, but I do want to say, 'I really do love y'all back.' I feel like this is a big family and I am the mom, Namjoon is the dad, Suga is the grandpa, and everyone else is the kids. That's why I get mad at you wanting your mom so bad, Hobi, because I try to treat you like as if you were one of my kids. I act like a mom, I like pink, I tell y'all what to do, but it's for everyone's safety that I do this.

"I've been wide awake the past few days, wanting to watch over my kids to make sure nothing happens to them. I haven't slept since wings started and, once they're over, I'm looking forward to sleeping for a week, if y'all will let me. Just know that I love y'all back." Jin says, then nods towards Namjoon. Everyone looks at Namjoon waiting for him to start, "I have a long speech. I hope y'all are ready for it." Everyone nods. "Go on, leader-nim." Taehyung says.