Regret your Rejection yet?

Need to know- done-

I need to know. I need to know how everybody really felt about me. I silently will listen and wait and find my answers. I can't believe someone would do that to someone like me. I'm not sure what the heck he was thinking!! he knows what I've been through! he knows everyone of my deepest darkest secrets!! he knows what it feels like to feel like shiz for weeks and months because of a rejection. He even knows what it feels like to have his mate die. Ideth died in a car accident two years after she left. He felt it. All of her hurt. He if all people should know not to fork with someone's life, heart, and emotions like he has. shiz dude, I can't believe his luring self I just want to stab him. in the neck. with a spork. and throw him down a flight of stairs into a pit of bricks, spikes and fire. And a demon comes up and grabs him in a choke hold and drags him in the pits of hell and makes him peel onions for the rest if his eternal suffering life.

Okay maybe that was a little to harsh. I mean he did save me and take me from a life of suffering and pain, and showed me warmth and love. Even if it all was a lie. So maybe we could take out the spikes from the Pitt of fire. but still, to fork with some one like that, why the hell would you do that? Some kinda sick pleasure or sum shiz? Ah, well I ain't goin take that shiz. ill go down with a fight before I let him break me. I know it seems like I've already been broken by him, but think. he saved me when I was Broken. And by that point, I was cutting myself to take back from the emotional and mental abuse from the pack house, because they weren't allowed to hit me in the house. And when kids got physical at school, I just figured I'd deserved it. I couldn't ask for a better life now. he saved me from the brink of suicide. Good thing he got there in time. or else I wouldn't be here today. shiz. I basically owe him my life! And I just did that? Damn I'm a selfish bish.

Why couldn't I ever think of anyone but myself? Oh, I've been hurt more. Or, Oh, he should know what I've gone through. He's been threw it. Its time to face the facts Lilly. Your a selfish bish that cares about no one, but herself. What could it hurt? Only living yourself would only possibly mean you can't get hurt. And being selfish? That just means your looking out for yourself. Look, see, I'm doing it again.

I'm going to start a new life so what's the point in just carrying about everybody else? What's the point in even loving anyone when in the turn around you are the one who gets beat up and trampled. I'm becoming super sexy and having a smoking hot body when I get out of this. then I'm getting a tattoo on my side. Of maybe a dream catcher. And I'll get my hair dyed with chocolate swirls since its already blonde.

I'm going to be a badass.

I can't wait to get up now.

I heard someone walking in the room. The chair beside my bed moved and someone say down in it. I automatically recognized that scent. The man who made all this happen. I hate him so much. okay maybe not really.

He sat down and I was immediately hit with the sound I sobs and a wave of emotion that was so raw I couldn't even comprehend it.

" I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry!! I couldn't do it any other way!! I had to protect you!!! I wanted an needed to keep you safe!!!! your my everything Lilly and I would jump in a pit of fire and spikes and bricks for you-" wow looks like we know he's be willing for earlier.. "- and I love you so much!! I can't believe I Got blessed with a mate like you!! When you wake up I'm making this up to you. But right now, since your not awake. ill send this memory through our link and then maybe you will believe me. because I know your stubborn self Doesn't right now.

MEMORY----

No sooner had I pulled off I noticed my car, smelled, different. it took me a moment to realize rouge. I had suddenly and abruptly pulled over the car and turned around to the back seat to find a Dark Brown pair of eyes staring back at me.

Kale.

" What do you want?" I asked thru gritted teeth. I'm use ing everything I can to not kill this guy right here right now.

" I only want to propose an offer." he smiled wickedly. ew.

" What do you want? Why would I even make a offer with you? What are you Doing here?" I asked in a rush.

" Why so many questions boy?" He asked snidely.

" Just, what do you want?" I asked getting angrier by the second.

" Oh only something simple. You reject Lilly, and you WILL do it. If you want her and your pack to survive, that is. And she will have no recollection of this meeting, you hear me? I have your lands surrounded with plenty of rouges well I shouldn't say that since they are now my pack. And I have plenty enough to wipe you out of existence. So please, do take up my offer." and with that he smiled.

Who does he think I am? Who does he think he is? Why does he think he can black mail me like this? So many questions rattle through my brain. I have to do it. I can't let the love if my life and my one and only be hurt. In any way possible. I will always choose her. Even over my own pack. But now they are both in jeopardy.

" Fine ill do it. " I agreed thru gritted teeth.

" Gooooood. I'm glad we can agree and see the same side to things, now don't you? That little B*tch deserves to die!" he said thru gritted teeth.

" Hey!! She is still my mate and I still love her. I will always love her!! don't you talk about her like that or ill have you beheaded in the backseat of my car!! do you hear me?" I screamed at him.

" Fine, fine. but know, ill be watching you. bbwhaha hahahaha !!!!" he yelled and then jumped out of my car and ran towards the woods.

Memory over---

I hope that help clear things up. I love you I really do. And you know what? I say screw the pack. Jax my bestfriend is going to take over. And the pack understands and the fact that our turning human doesn't change anything. I will to. I love you." he said with a final sob and left the room.

Wait what? he was going to say screw the pack and come with me? No! he had responsibility's here!! He couldn't just leave them!!! I need to get up and show him I love him still and I accept his apology.

I can't wait I need to get up now.

Just then a blinding light came searing through to my eyes. And then a heavenly voice spoke.

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There it is!!!! I'm sorry it took soooooo long!!!! I hope this got you hooked agian?? I'm sorry if the lovey dovey stuff isn't as good and emotional as it usually is, I had a really ruff time last night with the guy i like. He srsly jus forked around with my heart and then when I stopped playing hard to get and let my guard down he called me fat and all this other stuff. And to top that off, my best friends are having troubles with our ex best friends!!! they are so mean!!!!! So I'm sorry if it isn't good enough. I love you all!!!! OH AN THANK YU FOR SO MANY READS!!!! I HAVE LIKE 2.5K READS RIGHT NOW!!!! IM DIEING!!!! UGH I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MYCH!!!! LMAO xD. AND 127 VOTES I THINK!!! YOU GUYS RULE!!!

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