"THE LOVER"(더 러버)

SECRETS 비밀 P.2

#101: Suho's Pov
There is nothing more painful than hurting someone you loved

Why hurt someone whose only intention was to love me?

I keep thinking about what I just said and I regret saying something so selfish.

Right now we are on our way to the airport, We are going to find my noona's boyfriend and bring him back.

"Guys, come one let's go" My sister rushed out of the car.

Yixing followed her preventing her to fall down. While I as always walk on my own pace.

We were looking at the screens there were so many flights today, how could we find him?

"I need to find him" Noona cried in Lay's arms.

Lay kept looking desesperatly and I try to call Henry, he works at the airport.

"Oe, Suho hey what's up man? Hows life?" He asked

"Hey Henry hyung, I'm at the airport right now. Could you do me a favor? I want to look for Jung Yong Hwang. He is a passenger and he will take the Vietnam's flight at 12" I said

"Ok just give me a second....oh I found him! Ok bussines class, flight V36512 Vietnam. he is supposed to go to the check in. Hurry up if you want to catch him." Henry said

"Thanks bro I own you one" I hang up and run along with Lay and noona to the other side.

We arrive at the section but there were too many passenger waiting to do the check in.

"How can we find him? There's too many people" Lay sighed

"Yong Hwang" Noona yelled

People stared at us and start whispering

"Jung Yong Hwang" She yelled over and over again until we saw him looking at us shook.

"Are you nuts? What are you doing here?" he yelled whispered

Noona jump on his arms and hold him tighly

"Junming" He look surprised at her.

"The truth is that this baby it's yours. I was too afraid to tell you. I couldn't  admit I was in love with you. I mean...look at me. How can someone like me become a mother? How would I face your family or mine? I'm such a mess but I can't live without you" She talked so fast that it was almost impossible to understand her also her sobbs didn't make it easy.

Before she could keep talking non-stop, he kissed her.

The passengers start clapping and cheering

"Junming I don't care about that now. I love you" He smiled

We left them at his appartment and we went back home.We didn't spoke at all.

"Yixing about what I said earlier..." I tried to talk

"You don't have to say anything. I pressured you and I'm sorry. I never asked once how you actually felt but I'm glad I finally know. It's funny cause you never know someone perfectly" he smiled bitterly

"Yixing I'm sorry it's just that I'm scared and I don't want you to get hurt too..." I tried to hold his hand but he slap it away

"Don't touch me! I'm sick of your lies, your excuses. You are just scared of who you are. You are scared of your parents for godsakes! You know how much I had to swallow?  All the times I had to lie about us? You know the worst it's that I can't hate you" He cried out

"You don't understand how difficult it's to feel like this. How frustrating it's to lie all the time. I don't want to be like this" I yelled

I didn't meant to say all those things but I couldn't stop

" If I could I'll give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes only then you would realize how much you hurt me" He laughed bitterly

"If you could see how much I love you and you still don't get it. It's better to have nobody than have someone who doesn't wanna be there for me" I was so frustrated.

What was wrong with me?

Why couldn't I stop lying to him?

Hurry up, say something

"I'm sorry I was not good enough but I tried to be. Have a nice life I'm done trying to be in it" He cried

I had to stop him but I didn't have the strength to fight back.

I look around and he already took all his things. All empty as if we've never met.

You didn't got tired of loving, just got tired of waiting for me.

I knew exactly what you were saying and that's what hurts me the most

And now night has come and I'm sit here thinking about you hoping that you'll comeback.

#201: Sehun's Pov

I can't remember what happend after I got in my mum's house. I just know that I've been here for at least two weeks. I didn't go to school not to work. Luhan hasn't contact me.

"Sehun-ah someone came to see you" I heard my mum from downstairs

I rushed down and I was surprised to see Luhan's mum.

"Mrs Xi what are you doing here? How did you find me?" I asked

"Your mum contact me. It's a pleasure to meet you ma'am I'm sorry it's under this circumstances" Mrs Xi bowed politly

"It's also my pleasure. Please come inside" My mum guided her to the living room.

Mum sat next to me and Mrs Xi infront of us

"Sehun-ah you're probably wondering what am I doing here? Luhan feels so bad about what you found but he is scared that you don't love him anymore. You turned your phone off. You don't want to see him. I want to explain everything to you" She begged

"It's not that I can't forgive him. I just won't be able to trust him again. How could he hide something like that from me?" I asked sad

"He didn't do it because  he was ashamed of his past. He didn't want to disappoint you. Her name is Fan BingBing she was a classmate, they met when Luhan came here to study in college. She got pregnant and Luhan married her because he loved her but it turned out she fake it. She left Luhan after a year and run away with some other man. She returned those things to him. In the letter she apologized. She just wanted to marry Luhan to inherit her family business. Luhan couldn't trust anyone after that. He gave up on his office job and open a cafe. A year ago he met you. He fall for you. It's the first time I've seen him this happy. My son just tried to protect you" She explained

"Then why didn't he tell me? I would've understand if he did. Does he still love her? Does he still care about her?" I asked

"He did it because it's part of him. Not because he has feelings for her. He couldn't throw away his past. He wanted to tell you but he was so scared" she cried

"He is just beeing a coward. Sorry but I can't keep listening anymore. I don't want to see any of you agaim. So please go back" I rushed to my room.

Sometimes all you can do it's lay in bed and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.

Have you ever been so sad that it physically hurts inside?

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