"THE LOVER"(더 러버)

CONFESSIONS 고백 P.2

#204: D.o's Pov

It's painful to say goodbye to someone you don't want to let go but more painful to ask someone to stay when you know they want to leave.

If you love someone they leave you but if you don't love someone they leave you too. So your choice isn't between loving and losing only about loving or not

It feels like Jong In left ages ago but the truth is that it happend a couple of weeks ago. I can't bare to stay in the apartment any longer, everything reminds me of him.

Luhan hyung asked me to close the café today. He was going to talk to Sehun. I also want to talk to Jong In but it's too painful to do it.

The food doesn't taste well if he is not here, I don't want to cook, eat or sleep if he is not here but what can I do?

I decided to pack my things today and go back to my mom's house for the time being.

I prepared a small bag and I took some ingredients to make dinner for mum.

I locked the door and wait for the elevator.

I saw Luhan and Sehun leaving the elevator.

"Kyungsoo where are you going?" Luhan hyung asked

"I'm going to my mum's house. I can't stay here any longer" I tried to control my tears

"Kyungsoo-ssi I run into Kai and he gave me this for you. He wants you to come here" Sehun gave me an envelope with a ticket

"H-He didn't call me at all after he left. He disappear like dust and now he wants me to go there? Do I look that easy?" I burst in tears

"I don't know what happend but He doesn't look good either. He didn't stop loving you. He just had a self conflict. So why don't you wait until that day and see for yourself" Sehun smiled sadly

"He'll see" I sobbed

His university was organizing a small competition among the students  many important academies will be there wanting to hire someone for their companies.

There were many people around. I was looking fot my seat

"Kyungsoo-ssi" Jong In mum called me

I sat next to her

"Kai told me what happend. He really is an idiot but I understand why he did it. So please don't resent him" She smiled sadly

"He hurt me. I don't even know what I'm doing here or what I'm expecting" I laughed bitterly.

" The saddest part in life is to say goodbye to someone you wished to spent your lifetime with. He wanted to protect you with his own effort not because we supported you. Let's see if he did the right choice" she patted my shoulder

He performed along with his classmates I could see a wounded Taemin looking from afar. He cut his hair and he was wearing an old tracksuit.

The public clapped, Jong In's mum and I went down to meet him.

"Honey it was amazing" She hugged him

He stared at me the whole time, I felt breathless after seeing him after a long time

"Kyungsoo" he let go of his mum and wanted to approach me

"Let's talk somewhere else" I step aside

"Yeah...mum you can go home for now" Jong In smiled