Nathan
I was sat in my music room next to my piano, waiting for Jay to show up. He'd called me less than an hour ago, sobbing that his girlfriend had just broken up with him. I don't understand why he loved her so much. She treated him like shit, ragged on his best friends, told his family that he doesn't love them and hates them. She was just a down right bitch that everyone hated. Jay for some reason was too stupid to figure out that everyone hated her, and she was a bitch.
Everyone knew that Jay was bi, he'd dated a guy a couple of years ago, but has really just stuck to girls -Tom beings an ass, said that was because when he was with guys he was bottom. Now I don't believe what Tom said, but damn was it kinda funny.
"N-Nathan?" I hear Jay's shakey voice call into the house. I slowly stand from my place and walk into the front room where Jay stood looking ready to fall onto the ground in a heep and die if I didn't run over and hold him up.
"Jay," I rush over to him pulling him into a hug that I'm sure was much needed. Jay sobs into my shoulder and I could feel his knees wanting to give out. I quickly help him over to the couch before helping him sit down. He throws his head into his hands and continues to sob, a hand running threw his hair, he mumbled things to himself that made him sound like it was insane.
"Nathan, I don't know what to do. She told me that she never loved me, that she just used me. How did I never see it before? She is-was my everything. Now I've lost her and I don't feel complete." Jay says grabbing at my hands and looking into my eyes. I give him a sad smile, not knowing what completely to say.
"Jay, I don't-"
"You all told me that she was no good. Why didn't I listen to you? Why am I so stupid?"
"Jay, you aren't stupid. You just saw what everyone else didn't see, which was the act that she gave you. How about you make some coffee and go out back to the garden? I'll meet you out there in a second, yeah?" I smile at him. Jay gives me a smile that I knew was partly fake, but with me, I'm not sure if Jay has ever fake smiled. It's always looked so real, maybe he put on a good enough act that I didn't even see his pain that was some times there.
"Okay," he slowly stands turning to the kitchen. I watch him as he walks into the kitchen before bolting into my music room. I rush over to the balcany that looked over the garden pushing to doors open. I take in the sound of birds curping for a moment before going over to my piano. I start pushing it out onto the balcany.
When I hear the back door to the garden open, I run over looking over the railing. Jay walks out sitting down at the small table with two cups of coffee. I smile at him, he looked kinda of lost looking around the garden as if he'd never seen it before. I go back to pushing the piano onto the balcany hoping it wasn't making much noise; I didn't want Jay to suspect anything.
When I've finally gotten the piano onto the balcany I take my seat, taking a deep breath. My fingers glide over the Ivory keys as I begin playing my song of choise.
Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trust it, just trust it?
Have you ever thrown a fistful of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care."
I look over the railing seeing Jay looking around trying to find where I was. I smile to myself, remembering that he'd never been in my music room before, he didn't know where this balcany was. When Jay's eyes find mine, I continue singing.
It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning and the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?
Jay's mouth hang open as he watches me sing and play with maybe the most emotion I have ever played with. His face changes and he starts to smile. I smile knowing I caused that smile.
Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?
I watch Jay was his hand raises to to his eyes, I didn't understand why until he pulls it away and it looked wet. Jay was crying. I wanted to tear up myself, but I stopped myself knowing I had to stay strong for Jay. This was all for him.
It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss, and the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?
La La La La La La La La
There you are,
Sitting in the garden,
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar
Jay had sat down taking one of the coffee cups in his hand. He smiles down at it, before looking back up to me. Maybe he understood my message to him. That's what I prayed for, that he would understand what I was trying to tell him.
Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight
I let the final notes of the song fade before standing up. I look down at Jay, not finding him in the garden. I was confused, but when I hear the music room's door creek open I turn around to find a smiling, teary faced Jay. He slowly walks over to me, looking into my eyes he pulls me into a hug. I smile a hug him back.
"Thank you, sugar." He whispers.
"You're welcome." I whisper back.
