PRESSURED.

e i g h t

everyone else knows where they're supposed to be,
but only i walk without purpose
-reflection by bts

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it has been a dozens years now

i was already married to sungwoon

and we had three children, we were very happy

but when the news hit me, i immediatly froze

i received an invitation for your funeral

your mother told me you disappeared for a few weeks

and that they found your body, floating in a river

she told me it was suicide

after all these years, you were still unhappy?

i cried a lot and sungwoon comforted me

the kids were confused, but he sent them to their room

i still loved you, but it was a different kind of love

you were the first person i fell for, you take a special place in my heart

i am devastated, i really hoped it was all a dream

but when i saw you in a coffin

layers of makeup covering your injuries

i broke down, i couldn't handle it

your ex-band mates were present and they were also crying

everyone misses you a lot

why did you leave? i thought you were finally happy

but now, youre finally an angel

an angel that will surely be missed

you fell out of pressure, did you?

-jung areum