trigger warnings: self harm, bullying, mentions of suicide
I don't understand
how it can be so bright outside
with sun and breeze and gold
while in here it is so dark.
I don't understand
how it can be so cold in here
with mould and stone and grey
and how my hip can sting so much
from only three cuts
and how I had the courage to make those three cuts
when everyone tells me not to
because cutting means depression
and depression means suicide
and suicide means death
but it's not
that
simple
I'm bad
I've never been good enough
nerdy
ugly
selfish
stupid
they remind me I'm a failure
and this is my punishment, it's that easy
for being so wrong
the blood is right
YOU ARE READING
musings
Poetryanything i jot down in the dark hours of the night and come across in the morning © 2018