embrace the tornado

graves

people like you are so dangerous

you can be the highest of the highs

or the lowest of the lows

grab my hand

tell me you’re here

but i still don’t really know

there used to be days i never wondered about me and you

but now it seems like every day my soul turns another shade darker

looking back at the summer when we didn’t have a care in the world

things were so much happier, so much simpler

back then i thought i was going to love you til i died

but now i lay here instead

my heart bleeding through my sheets

and i think i just wanna die here instead

because it’d be less painful than what we’re going through

last night plays through my head

i wonder what i did wrong

i think i’m guilty of wanting to be young

but wanting your love

i mean holy shit looking back i couldve died right then

watching the door swing shut in my face

i don’t know who dragged me back into the party

i couldve died again

when i stumbled down fourteen flights of stairs

i don’t know how i made it out alive

or again

when a total stranger walked me back to my dorm

i don’t know why i chatted him up

and the idea that you weren’t there to stop it gets to me

it eats at me

i thought we always had each other’s backs

it all happened too fast for me to catch it

we used to make magic

but i felt you change

and i would do anything to see the boy i fell in love with again

maybe i’ll go gravedigging and try to find his corpse

pull him up, hold him close, kiss him on the forehead like he once did

both of us are heavier now than we used to be