Obligations

Chapter One

Obligations|One

Katrina

I can't believe I left my post for this. I can't believe I gave up my life for this. I left being a Captain all to be here in Las Noches, to be betrayed by Gin, to be left all in my lonesome. The one thing that happened out of all of this that I enjoy? I now have a twin. Much to my displeasure, the transition hurt like hell. Aizen didn't know what he was doing, and I ended up injured, took me two weeks to recover fully. He created the Espada, a group of 11 who were ranked from 0 to 10, I was #0, meaning I am the strongest. With my Soul Reaper abilities still in effect, they were magnified and expanded. No one here dared mess with me. Not Gin, not Tosen, no one. I knew I could easily take them down, and I knew they knew too.

The Espada respected me, all except for a handful, but I put them in their place. Espada #1: Coyote Starrk, he and I got along well enough. He respected me as his superior, even cracks jokes and tries to make me feel better. He reminded me of Toshiro. I missed the little brat, always looking out for me. I hope they promoted him to Captain. He deserves it way more than I ever did. Espada #2: Baraggan Louisenbairn, cocky prick is what he is. He's respectful, but he doesn't see me as stronger, he sees me as a kid. Pisses me off. Reminds me of Byakuya. I hope Rukia and him have made up. Espada #3: Tier Harribel. She had become my best friend over this time. She was calm but she was strong. She takes pride in who she is, I honestly admire her. Espada #4: Ulquiorra Schiffer, my twin. In my transformation, something went wrong. One of the hollows had clung to me on our way to the room and his soul was trying to merge with mine, and although he was unsuccessful, we had an uncanny resemblence and became twins. He's understanding, but only of me. He's cold around and to others and refuses to show anyone else emotion. Ulquiorra is widely misunderstood. Espada #5: Nnoitora Gilga. Fuck him. Spoon head thought it would be a good idea to try to harass me and grab me. Big mistake. Espada #6: Grimmjow Jaggerjack. He's cocky, but he knows his place. He's also quite attractive, but his violent impulses make him seem arrogant. He's a great guy, the few conversations we've had have been great. He, however, hates my brother and the feelings are mutual between them. Espada #7: Zommari Rureaux. Don't really have an opinion on him. He seems respectful though. Espada #8: Szayelaporro Granz. I swear in his past life he was a girl. Although he's feminine, he's super helpful. He's a really smart scientist, his mask even coming in the shape of glasses. He's got a dark sense of humor though. Espada #9: Aaroniero Arruruerie. I'm not even gonna try, he's a creep. Espada #10: Yammy Llargo. Ugh, don't get me started with him either.

There were few arrancars outside of the Espada that I associated my self with, and I only had one fraccion, Lavender Jaggerjack, Grimmjows younger sister. She was calm and collected, but could be very sassy when needed. She was the exact oposite of her brother. She was extremely respectful towards me. My train of though was soon interrupted by Ulquiorra opening my door. "Aizen has scheduled a meeting, sister. He's requested that we all come immediately." He said smoothly. "I'm coming. Thank you for telling me. I'll be there in just a second." I replied. He nodded and left the room, giving me my privacy. I sighed and put on my shoes, which came up to my mid thigh, right below where my skirt ended. My skirt had a slit up my left side to the black band holding it on, but I wore black shorts underneath. My shirt was sort of like Harribel's, but it had a v-neck and no sleeves. It stopped just below my boobs. I also wore a black choker.

I walked out of the room to see Ulquiorra had left, no matter. I knew where to go. I've been here longer than any of the other Arrancar. I know my way around Los Noches like I know the back of my hand, which Nnoitora was about to get if he didn't stop staring at me walk. Yes, when I came out Nnoitora was also making his way to Aizen's meeting room. Fortunately, there was someone behind him, so I didn't think he'd act on much. Boy was I wrong. Nnoitora grabbed my arm and shoved me to the wall, trying to whisper things in my ear, but I shoved him off and into the wall by his throat. "Don't think I won't kill you, Gilga. You know I don't give a damn about Aizen's orders and regardless of what he says, you touch me one more time and I'll fucking kill you." I spat. I fixed my top and began walking again. "Damn Katrina, didn't know you had that in you." I heard a brash male voice behind me say. I recognized it immediately. "Hello, Grimmjow. Quite frankly, neither did I but that asshole deserved it. He's a rotten pervert and he will be put in his place." I said. I knew I could take any of these Espada on any day, none of them were any problem to me. "Would you really kill him for touching you?" He looked over at me. "Definitely. I was the second most ruthless in all of the Soul Society at one point, that's only been magnified here." I explained. I was known to be more ruthless and bloodhungry when it came down to fighting than Kenpachi Zaraki himself. I was shy on the outside, but I loved the feeling of my blade clashing with someone elses. I loved the feeling of being in control because it was the one thing I could control. "So the rumors are true then?" I looked at the blue haired male confused, "You were the Soul Reaper Aizen experimented on. The one Gin betrayed? None of the rest of us were for sure it was really you." Grimmjow explained. Wow, even among arrancars my story is popular. "Yep. I had it all. I was the captain of squad 10, I had a loyal lieutenant, I had friends, I had admirers, I had people I cared about. Toshiro, my lieutenant begged me not to go. His face pleaded me, but I was a fool. I loved Gin. On the day I was transformed into this I was woozy, I felt like someone had given me a drug. The last words I heard before I passed out were, "I never loved you." I woke up in agony. I felt my soul merging with something else, who turned out to be Ulquiorra. After it was all over, Gin told me I finally embraced my true, ugly side. I hit him in the face, now it's all over. He will never have a say in what I do. Looking back on it all I was foolish. Toshiro, he was in love with me and I, too blind to see it, left because I was blinded by my childhood feelings." I explained. I didn't know why I was telling Grimmjow this, but I guess I would tell anyone who asked. It's not something I felt the need to hide. I do regret this, I regret being here. "Would you go back if you could?" I looked him in the eye. "They'd never take me back. I saw Toshiro crying as in stepped into the Garganta. However, if I could take it all back I would. I miss my family. I miss my life. I have to deal with what I've done though, might as well embrace it." I shrugged at my last comment. What else could I do? There was nothing to do. "I guess you're right. May I ask what even drew you to Gin though? He's pretty creepy." Grimmjow chuckled and I giggled a bit. "When he'd open his eyes, they were beautiful. They drew me in. I felt like I was lost in the sky. Too bad it turned out to be I was drowning in the deepest part of ocean." 

Grimmjow didn't have time to respond for the two of us were entering the room containing our subject of conversation. My blood boiled at the sight of him. I couldn't stand the sight of him. Grimmjow sat down beside me, my brother in front of me, Zommari beside of Grimmjow, Szayelaporro beside him, then Yammy. Beside of Ulquiorra was Starrk, then Spoonhead, then Harribel, then Aaroniero, who was technically sitting beside Yammy. Aizen sits and the end of the table between Ulquiorra and I with his two goons in the corner. Grimmjow kept kicking my feet and chuckling at my frustrated reaction.  "Grimmjow, stop! You're tickling my leg when you do that!" I whisper-yelled. I was trying to hold back my giggling. This happened every single time I sat near him. This boy always tried to make me laugh and it never failed. Aizen came in and Grimmjow stopped. I noticed Ulquiorra was glaring the blue haired boy down. I furrowed my brows at Ulquiorra as if to ask why, but all he did was facepalm and I was left to wonder in my own confusion.

The entire meeting was a waste of my time. Aizen was talking about making new arrancar and testing our strengths again. He also told me to watch my temper with Nnoitora, to which I responded "Go to hell." I should have the right to stand up for myself. I am not an object. Ulquiorra walked with me back to my room, but not before Grimmjow bumped into me smirking and told me he'd see me later. I got the flirty vibe from Grimmjow, but I wasn't going to point it out, I just let it slide. "I don't know how you tolerate Grimmjows pathetic behavior." Ulquiorra scowled. "Brother, he's just being a male. It doesn't bother me. At least he isn't anything like Nnoitora or Yammy. I don't know how you deal with that great Oaf, but you do it." I hate Yammy. "Fair point, but I hope you realize Grimmjow is in fact taking a lusting interest in you." We finally reached the doors and I knew this entire time that Grimmjow had been following us, so I made sure he could hear it when I said this, "Well, he can get in line. If he wants to be the one to win me over he'll have to prove he's different and show me that he can appreciate who I really am, not who I appear to be." I sassily commented as I walked through my door, looking back to where the boy was standing to see him smirking. Smirk all you want, Kitty Cat, it won't get you anywhere. If there's one thing I've learned it's never trust how someone appears to be.

It was late, most people would be asleep by now. This artificial sky has weather I find too beautiful to miss, which is another reason I stay up to see it. I find it so beautiful and calming to be able to look out at the stars. I feel the moon calling me, I feel a bit of breeze through my hair, which was lightly being blown back. I was sitting in the windowsill looking at the stars, reminiscing on what things could be if I were still there. If I was where I should be. The Soul Society is where I belong. I wonder if Toshiro would ever be able to look at me again, or anyone there for that matter. I wonder if the Abarai twins would be able to look me in the eye. I wondered if all this time it was really worth it. What Aizen had done, no, what Gin had done was unforgiveable. Taken me away from my home, my joy, the one thing that I thought would always be mine I gave up for a dumb boy. Never again will I experience such pain, never again will I trust someone with everything that I love, never again will I really leave my heart in someone's hands. I've learned my lessons and I've sworn my vows. I've taken all the measures necessary to keep my feelings at bay until I know if my interests are true. I've surrendered my heart to two men my entire life, and they ended up breaking my heart, shattering it into a million pieces because of the same girl. Shuhei and I had been together for almost three years when he left me for Rangiku, someone he couldn't even have. Gin could have very well had her, but he loves to play games.

My thoughts were interrupted by a noise coming from the other side of my room, my eyes caught onto the figure quick as I balled up my fist, getting ready to hit pretty quick. No one was supposed to be wondering the halls at this time, who the hell could this be? He came into the moonlight shining into my window and when I saw the blue hair I knew precisely who it was. Grimmjow Jaggerjack. "Tell me Grimmjow, why have you taken such an interest in me?" I smiled, unballing my fist as I felt my entire body untensing. "You've intrigued me, Katrina Schiffer. I want to know about you." He smirked again, showing off his canine panther teeth. "You heard me earlier Grimmjow. Don't mess with me unless you're prepared. I've got issues, I have mood swings, I'm temperamental and violent, I'm stubborn and once my mind is set you won't change it. Do you still wish to continue?" I walked up to him and I would say we were face to face but due to my lack of vertical inclinement we were chest to face, my face being at his chest. I looked into his eyes and saw no signs of a joking manner as he said his reply. "I do."