Obligations

Chapter Fourteen

Alright guys, one of my friends was too lazy to comment, but chose Gin. Seeing as how this story is not popular in the slightest, I got like 3 votes, but the majority went to Gin. Sooooo the final result is Gin Ichimaru and this story will stay in his direction. However seeing as how I also loved the Toshiro idea, I will also be making a story about him in the future. I hope you enjoy!

Obligations|Fourteen

Katrina

"You didn't. Aizen, tell me you didn't!" I screamed at my 'father.' He smirked at my expression. Gin held me by the shoulders. "Now now, calm down Athena." Gin tried to sympathize. "No, fuck you!" I yelled, ripping away from his arms. "Tell me you didn't Aizen, tell me you're lying!" I cried out. "I'm afraid it's the truth, but don't fret my dear. I've brought you a new one. Maybe this one will learn how to obey." He snarled and walked away. I fell to my knees and began to sob. "Athena. Get up, now." Gin ordered. I looked up at the man, seeing sympathy on his face, but his words were stern. I obeyed, but I held my head low. "Gin, take me to Grimmjow." I whispered. "If you tell him-" I cut him off, "He'll attack me, I know. I deserve it. It's my fault." I sobbed. Gin frowned, but nodded and took me to the sixth espada's room. Gin unchained me and let me knock on the door. He answered it, tears in his eyes. "You." He growled. He pinned me up against the wall by my neck. "Look what you've fucking done! You killed her! She's dead because of you, you bitch!" He cried out as I struggled against his hand. "My little sister... She's gone. Look what you've fucking done, Katrina. She was my baby sister! I swore I'd protect her, and Aizen killed her because of you!" He let go off my neck and fell to his knees; to be honest I could feel that his hands were probably going to leave bruises on my neck. "Gin, can I have a minute?" He nodded and closed the door, leaving me and the blue haired man alone. "I'm so sorry, Grimmjow. I hate Aizen. I will avenge your sister. I promise. Not just for you, for me. It's all my fault." I grabbed him and pulled him into my lap, his head laying on my thigh as I ran my fingers through his hair, trying to calm him down. I wasn't very calm myself. I could feel blood trickle down my chin from where I was trying to hold back my sobs by biting my lips. I could feel my eyes trying to water, so I sat my head back on the wall to keep them from hitting Grimmjow so he wouldn't see me crying. "I'm so sorry... I never meant for this to happen." I tried to hold my sobs in, but I wasn't quick enough. I let out a cry and I felt Grimmjow sit up. He saw my bloodied lip and the tears going down my face and I could see his eyes soften. "I'm sorry, I didn't realize you'd hurt just as much from this as I would. She admired you, Katrina. She'd never want me to say the things I did. We have to avenge her." I nodded, accepting his apology; but I couldn't stop my tears. He held out his arms and I leaped onto them. I needed a shoulder, someone who felt the way I did. Grimmjow was the only person that would feel like I did after the loss of Lavender. Life won't be the same without her. I felt him stroke my hair, much like I'd done to him. "Let it out, Katrina. It's not okay to keep it bottled up."

I lost it. I sobbed, I punched the wall, I cried out, I wrapped my arms around him again. She was my best friend, she wasn't just a servant. I eventually fell asleep, all used to this feeling. This wouldn't be the first time I cried myself to sleep and it wouldn't be the last. Forgive me Lavender, it seems I've failed you too.  First Captain Kyoraku, now you Lavender. Will I ever stop being such a failure?

Gin

He brought her out, her lip and fists bloodied and her face soaked in tears. "Did you have to hit the poor girl so hard?" I taunted. Inside I was infuriated. He better say he didn't hit her or he might disappear when Aizen isn't looking. "I didn't do it, Gin. She was in a rage fit. Take her wherever she's supposed to go. I'm sure it isn't here." He sighed. "I know she asked to come here, thank you. I needed that." With that, he handed her to me and I was carrying her bridal style. He walked back into his room and shut the door. "My my Athena, you've given him quite a fit." I sighed. 'You've given me quite the heart attack here lately.' I took her back to Orihime's room; where Aizen's plan was supposed to take place. I don't like this at all. They're going to take her. He's going to take her. Toshiro can't have her. Ichigo can't have her. None of them can, she's mine. I'm going to be the one to keep her safe, to take her revenge, and to make her happy again. I feel obligated to do it and nothings going to get in my way.

I finally got to the room, kicking open the door enough to get through and making sure not to hit her head. "Aizen has instructed me to bring her back. He also told me to tell you that if you heal her your friends will die. You will sit here and be obedient. Am I clear?" I asked, sitting Athena down on the couch. I walked towards the door, awaiting the girl's response. "Yes sir." She bowed. 'Please defy Aizen. He isn't really going to kill them, he's testing you. Heal her, she may die without it.' I wouldn't know what's going to happen until tomorrow, and by then if she hasn't healed the girl, she'll be dead. I walked out the door. What to do, what to do? Ah, yes. That's always an option.

Katrina

I woke up to a shimmering orange light over me. "O-Ori-hime." I coughed out. My voice was raspy and rough. What happened? As I asked myself this, memories played over in my head. I wasn't supposed to be healed, what does this girl think she's doing? "Y-You're not supposed t-to do this." I coughed. "I know, but I heard someone tell me he'd protect them; my friends I mean. Aizen threatened to harm them, but this man's voice was sincere. I have a feeling they'll be fine. I needed to heal you, you would've died without my help." She smiled. "I want to protect you as well, Katrina." Orihime, you really are a kindhearted person. "Thank y-you." I smiled back. My mind began to wonder. Who could she have been talking about? Did Gin find some way to contact her? Wouldn't he get in trouble? Aizen would kill him! God then I'd never forgive myself. "Orihime, how long have I been out?" I hurridly asked, getting my voice back. "Probably about a day or so, why?" My heart began to race, "Has Gin came in here?" I was going to have a panic attack. "No, he hasn't been here since he ordered me not to heal you." My mind began to try to conclude reasons as to why he hadn't been here other than death and I could only find one real explanation. 'Maybe he stood away so Orihime could heal me?' I thought. That seemed to make sense, my heart began to slow back down, I was able to intake air now. "I'm happy he hasn't either. I don't want him to catch us. May I ask what your wounds came from, Katrina?" I looked over out the window. "Defying Aizen." I mumbled. 

Gin... Please let me know you're okay. My heart would never be able to recover if you died because of me. I'd never let it go. I'd never be able to live with myself. "He did this to you?" She seemed shocked. "No. He'd never have the guts. He gets someone else to do this kind of thing." I sighed. "Well, your wounds are healed. I'm sorry it took so long." She apologized. "Please don't apologize Orihime. You did the best you could. Thank you, I haven't felt this well since before I got here!" I smiled, to which she smiled in return. Her smile mimicked Lavender's. Sweet and soft, with a whole lot of respect and kindness. Why couldn't it have been me? I didn't deserve to live while she dies. She was so loyal and determined. She was a role model, not me. Lavender was the light in Hueco Mundo. She reminded me so much of Toshiro, always brightening up my day and helping me no matter what my task was. How could I let this happen? How could I do you wrong after all the times you helped me? Orihime began to chatter, but I gave back short responses. I couldn't focus on anything other than my fallen subordinate. 'What have I done?' Was all that was going through my mind right now. I felt like a broken track on repeat, always coming back to the same note. I felt like my life was stuck on a loop. One thing after another. How could my own father do something like this? How could he be the one to destroy my life? Why would he do this? Was this a game? Some kind of joke? All I could feel was my life being left behind, my heart had gone with her. I told her as long as she was by my side, she'd be safe. How could I lie to her? How could I betray her, just like I'd done to Toshiro? Again, I was a broken track stuck on the same note. Now had I done the same to Gin? Had I killed him too? Had I killed another person I couldn't live without? Would I forever be stuck to be alone? Would I always be cursed this way? A million thoughts flowed through my mind, but not a single one was happy. I missed her, I missed Gin. I need Gin. I want Gin here now. He was my saving grace. I knew he'd be able to find something good in me and make me laugh. I couldn't help myself, every time my thoughts wondered to Gin, I pictured him dead because of me and I wanted to scream and cry. 

From there all I could do was think about Lavender. It made me wonder, who did Aizen make do it this time? Gin? No, he wouldn't make Gin do something to anger me. Gin's purpose is to torture me. Kaname? No, he wouldn't make him either. He taunts me. I know Aizen wouldn't do something like that himself, he's too big of a wuss. Could he have gotten Nnoitora to do it? He's a bastard, but he wouldn't want to without me watching; sadistic fuck. Barragan? No. He's too self-righteous. 

That's when it hit me. Oh, Grimmjow... What has my father made you do?