Confusion

Chapter 1

I just wanted to say I hope you enjoy it! Let me know what you think :).

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This whole day, I have just been sitting at home listening to music. My friends asked me to go to the beach but honestly, I just felt like sitting in the air conditioning. Today was hot, hotter than California should be. It was 102 degrees so I don't know why anyone would even leave their house but I'm not like them I guess.

I went into the kitchen to get some ice cream. I was starving and my parents wouldn't be home for a while. I could make my own dinner but why put in the effort, I've always been pretty lazy and I'm surprised that I'm actually still skinny but hey, I'm not complaining.

Just as I sat on the couch with my ice cream, I heard a knock at the door. I groaned and stood up, and walked to the door. I swung it up and my annoyance disappeared.

"Hey!" Brent said as he wrapped his arms around me."where have you been? I haven't seen you since graduation over a week ago!"

I didn't even realize graduation had been that long ago. Maybe I should get out more. But I just laughed.

"I've been here" I said with a smile.

"I can see that" he said through laughter." Do you feel like getting some dinner?"

"Sure, I just have to get ready" I replied while motioning him to come inside.

Brent came in and sat on my couch while I ran up to my room. I put on a pencil skirt with a blue ruffled top. I quickly ran a brush through my hair and straightened my hair as straight as it could go. I put on some blush and swiped my eyelashes with a little mascara. When I figured I look presentable I went back down stairs and told Brent I was ready.

We went out to his car and he opened the door for me. I smiled at him and got in his car. The drive was quick since the diner wasn't that far.

We walked in and the hostess seated us in a booth. We sat across from each other and we ordered our drinks.

Once the waitress walked away, Brent took my hands in his and smiled at me.

"What?" I asked

"I was just thinking of how gorgeous you are." He said

"Ya okay, now what really?"

He laughed and said "well I was thinking we could fill out our college applications together tomorrow."

"That would be great!" I said with a smile.

After that, we got our food and just talked about how great it would be if we both got into NYU. The time flew by and as always, Brent insisted that he payed. After like 5 minutes of arguing, I let him win.

He drove me home and I saw that my parents were home. Brent walked me to the door and touched my cheek.

"I love you" he whispered in my ear.

"I love you too" I said with a huge smile.

He kissed me goodnight and walked back to his car. As he drove off, I waved at him with a smile, but I realized I had this strange feeling...guilt maybe? I felt like I didn't mean the "I love you" I said to him, but that's insane. We have said it before and I just couldn't figure out why I suddenly felt different about it.