Confusion

Chapter 8

Ever since I kissed Harry that's all I could think about. Brent has called a few times but I didn't answer because I didn't want to tell him yet. But I know I have to.

I have been trying to distract myself by looking for a new car. There are a few places near campus so I decided to walk to the closest one. It was about two miles away, so it wasn't that bad.

There weren't that many cars there but there were a couple I liked. My mom said I didn't have to worry about money and I could buy any car that I wanted with my credit card.

I fell in love with one car there. It was a blue four door jeep. I talked to the worker there for a good hour and a half. He finally let me sign all the papers and I got to drive my jeep back to campus.

I parked near my dorm entrance and walked down the hall. When I turned the corner I saw Someone waiting at my door. Harry. He was sitting against it playing with his hands.

I walked up to him and stood over him. "So what. Are you a stalker now?" I said with a little laugh.

"No. Definitely not. Well maybe" he stood up, now towering over me. "I just wanted to apologize."

"For what?" I was confused.

"I know you have a boyfriend back home and it was wrong of me to make a move."

"No Harry it's ok. It was my fault too, you shouldn't feel bad, sometimes I can just be so stupid." I shook my head.

Harry stepped towards me. "Don't say that! Your pretty much perfect." I think the second part of that slipped out because he looked down after.

"Harry. I have problems too. I am not near perfect okay?" I lifted his head to look at me. As soon as his eyes met mine, I felt butterflies. He cupped my cheeks with his hands and pulled me into his arms. He dug his head into my neck. I think I hit a soft spot with Harry by talking about not being perfect. I feel like their is a part to Harry that I don't know about. But I really want to find out.

He pulled away a little and looked at me. There were tears in his eyes and I don't even know what for. I usually see Harry as this bad boy who threatens boys weaker than him, but right now he was sweet and vulnerable. I wiped his tears away.

"Maddie. I know you have a boyfriend. But there is no way you could deny that we have something. Ever since I looked into your eyes for the first time. I couldn't stop thinking about you."

I processed his words for a moment, and he was right. I couldn't deny it. Every time I see him I get butterflies and they aren't the bad kind.

He looked at me again. "I'm not making you do anything now. But maybe can you just think about us. I could take you on dates and hold your hand when we walk. When it's cold out, I can give you my coat and hug you tight. We can be perfect, together."

I have never heard anything more sincere in my life, and I sure didn't expect it from Harry. But I love Brent and he has been my only love for so long. I only knew Harry for about 3 days and we haven't even hung out for more than 10 minutes. But there was just something I felt with him, I felt different.

He leaned in slowly and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. "I had to do that." He whispered inches from my face. He handed me a slip of paper and walked away with a giddy smile.

I unfolded the paper. It read "just think about what I said and let me know. Take your time." His number was written at the bottom.

I just stood in the hall for a while, staring at the note. Confusion flooding over me. I tried to put up a fight of what to do but in reality, I knew what I had to do and I was already dialing Harry's number.

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Sorry this was a little short. But for me it's April vacation now! Woo!