Thomas Sanders Oneshots

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

           Logan suggested for me to keep a diary so that I can express my feelings instead of, what I do now.

As much as I want to express everything, I don't think I can. My feelings are hard to express, it's all just a big blur of black in my head.

I know where I'm going to hide this, so if you have found it and are reading it. I'm sorry that you had to go through this; I'm a complete mess.

A gorgeous mess.

I just hope you (whoever you are) won't think differently after reading my deepest darkest thoughts.

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Dear Diary,
           Great.

Today I had a panic attack in front of dad.

He calls Patton dad. That's cute.

Now he won't stop babying me. I get that seeing it was probably stressful for him but the way he is treating me makes me even more anxious, that's why I'm not going to leave my room.

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Dear Diary,
           I had another argument with Roman today. It hurt more than normal and I don't get why. He called me a useless waste of oxygen and... when he did I got a stabbing pain in my chest.

Dad stepped in and told him off, but it won't erase the way it made me feel. I played it off and just sunk down while dad was shouting. After he noticed he came and found me to comfort me. It helped a little but not much.

I'm sorry.

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Dear Diary,
           I didn't show up to Thomas's video today. Everyone seemed happy without me, I guess they really don't need me.

I lay in my bed all day and ignored everyone, eventually dad came by and gave me some food and things for me to drink. I put it all in my mini fridge for later, I'm not hungry.

I should've noticed.

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Dear diary,
           Roman came and knocked on my door, it really surprised me if I'm honest. I did NOT expect him to be concerned about me at all. It was a pleasant surprise I suppose. Could've been worse.

Of course I came.

He sat outside my door just talking to me. He even sang a little bit for me, I'll admit it made me smile. When he said he was leaving I opened the door and gave him a tight hug as thanks.

It was sweet to hear about.

I invited him inside and he just lay with me. His presence calmed me in a way, before I knew it he was asleep. It was sweet.