Not Thinking Straight

Chapter 1

A/N: Most chapters will be written in Taylor's POV. You will be told if otherwise.

I thought today was a normal day. It started like a normal day.

I took too long in the shower, didn't eat breakfast, and almost missed the bus. Yeah, a normal day.

Nothing really exciting happened in school. Then again, being a 16 year old, nothing that happens really excites me. Other than fights. Those are exciting. The few biggest events; Dakota wouldn't shut up about his new piano and Indiana said she might dye the ends of her hair pastel pink.

It stopped being a normal day after school.

My best friend, Audrey, and I are in Chess Club together. We're in most things together. Chorus (even though neither of us can actually sing), Photography Club, Anime Club, Chess Club, and most of our classes. I'm in Debate Club with just Dakota though.

Chess Club had been really fun. I beat Audrey for once, then Shawn. I lost to Ivy when I played her. She's really good, but Audrey has beaten her a lot. Audrey is the 2nd best chess player I know. I think she let me win this time.

Audrey is one of the most interesting people I know. She has two dogs, she's 17, a single child, she's been to London 3 times, she enjoys going to random places so I can take pictures, not afraid to voice her opinion, and, what was that other thing.....oh yeah! She's gay as fuck.

We were on the bus ride home, and just like any normal Tuesday, sitting in the same seat with all of our crap squished in. She was looking at something on her phone when I looked at her. The sunlight hit her perfectly, illuminating her, making her look like an angel. It was picture perfect, but I didn't think about getting out my camera.

I just wanted to kiss her on the cheek.

She looked at me at that exact moment and started talking to me about this thing she found on tumblr. I only half paid attention, instead mentally hyperventilating about the fact I wanted sexual contact with a girl. Luckily, my stop was next. We talked about a cool t-shirt I saw in the mall the other day, and then I had to leave. Thank God.

"I'll see you tomorrow!" Audrey said.

"See ya," I replied, trying not to freak out.

I walked into my house as quickly as possibly, trying to avoid anyone on the way to my room. It didn't work.

"Taylor! How was school?"

"It was fine, Mom," I internally groaned, knowing I'd be stuck here for at least 5 minutes. I love my mom and all, but she'll talk to anyone for 10 minutes straight, leaving them hopeless and alone unless they can be rescued by someone.

"Do you have any homework?" she ask while cleaning the coffee table.

"No, Mom. I need to study for a test, though," I thought of a believable lie. That ought to work.

"You can do that tonight. How was Chess Club?" Jeez, Mom. Just let me go!

"Fine. Can I please go? I need to check on Winston," Winston's my completely black kitten who I love to death.

"Why? I'm sure he's fine. What do you want for dinner?" Damn, woman.

"Mac and cheese, I guess? I really need to go study and check on Winston. We can talk later, okay?" I prayed a collective prayer this would work.

"Okay. Just remember to water the plants and take the trash out," she said. FREEDOM! Finally. This time, I was able to defeat her quickly.

I walked into my room and collapsed onto my trundle bed.

I let out a sigh. Winston jumped up and laid on my stomach.

"Hi buddy," I whispered, stroking his back. He started purring and I started taking deep breaths, trying to figure out what just happened. Then, it hit me.

I'm gay.

A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter of Not Thinking Straight. In the next chapter more characters will be introduced. I have some plans for this story, but some things I'll leave up to you readers! I don't know how frequently I'll update and when, it all depends on my personal schedule. So, prepare for random updates.

I'll update some point within the next few days, so stayed tune for that! I hope you are having a good day, and if not, I hope it gets better! 'Cause it always does.

~ Juliet