Dangerous love (shawn Mendes Fanfic)

Chapter 26 Secrets

Jakeypoos Pv :

Yesterday was such a great day when Sammy came home. I missed her so much we are kinda telephaical siblings but we're not not twins. We ordered pizza and just talked it felt normal and since I've seen shawn with her she seems to be more human and alive. I'm glad I've not seen her this happy since we were kids. I  hate talking about it, I've only talked about it with Sammy, dad and a little with cam.

Sammy and me got anxiety and depression 2 tears ago I started to drink my problems away and do drugs until Sammy found me unconscious and almost dead. I promised her I would never do it again but I've been lying to her. I  have a secret stash in case I need it. I was so close to using it till she came.

Sammy did street fighting and racing but she got into accident which I'm pretty sure was pre-planned on her so I tell her she's not aloud to. On mum's last death anniversary she overdosed on pills on purpose, trying to kill herself like I did. We don't go to a therapist cause that would probably just break us even more.

I've stayed awake all night just thinking about this crazy stuff. It's now 5:46 am. Why not wake her up. I quietly walk into her room that we got her but I accidentally stepped on a creaky part of the floorboard and she sprung up. "oh hey jakeypoos what's up with you why are you not sleeping." I smiled "you're not asleep either did you stay awake all night again." she shook her head yes. "I couldn't sleep. I've not been sleeping for days." she always admits things honestly and knew I was gonna ask her "me too princess. You miss her don't you well so do i. Dad might not admit it but he does too. She glued us together now she's gone we've fallen apart. But I know she's looking down at us from up above."

she sighed "Why fix what's not broken huh Jake , we're on the Verge of breaking but I know some one or something will help us." I smiled at her response full of more hope then she's ever had. Almost like someone influenced her. Was it shawn? Whoever it was. They're mending her broken cold hearted heart.

We went on a run then I forced her to go to sleep. I told her I'd take a nap later and went downstairs to see shawn and cam eating. "hey guys what's up" I ask cam keeps on eating of course, he's just like Sammy they get really into their food, shawn talks though "I'm good, but I think cams broken I'm guessing by the looks of it, he's on love with food." I chuckle "Yh him and Sammy do that a lot. I'm glad you're normal mendes, how's everything back home"

he smiles "good, it's not been bad for as long as I can remember apart from years ago when-oh I'm sorry" I knew straight away what he meant and took a deep sigh "it's fine shawn just please try to not bring it up. Did Sammy tell you about what happened." he nodded "Yh a little but can-n you tell me what happened" he stuttered so he is obviously nervous I guess he knows I'm a hit man. I got a message from cam saying he went out so I thought why not

"um you know what I'll tell you outta trust, I have a good feeling of you mendes I've not even fully told cam so sit down" he did as he was told and I took a breathe and a sip of water before I began. I told him what Sammy did, I told him about our depression and anxiety. I told him everything how my mum died. How it broke us. How we want revenge and how Sammy and me are targeting each and everyone of those who hurt us starting off with Alex Peterson. He's Doug petersons kid, his dad Doug let my mum lose her baby, my unborn little sister. As I talked I saw shawn fill of genuine sympathy and looking uncomfortable, I wonder why. "know you know everything but you can't tell Sammy I told you dude, just watch out for her. I'm gonna be in LA and I wanna have eyes on her. I trust you so don't lose it, im pretty sure you've heard about me and my reputation of death. Don't say anything shawn. I'm gonna go take a nap - oh hey Sammy poo what's going on " she walked in and I only noticed now. Shit. What If she heard everything.

She  bro hugged me like usual" nothing what we're you guys talking about " I quickly said nothing and she glared at me, knowing something was up" fine go take your nap Jake " I sighed in relief. I'm glad she let it go for now.