Tutor. S.M Fanfiction

FORTY THREE

"The bus is coming in like an hour and a half come on" I yell through the flat. "Calm the fuck down I'm here" Ashlee says pulling two suitcases with her. We were in Harry's flat at the moment as I was waiting for Ashlee.

One week later and my tour starts today. I was hoping for Simon to come with me for this tour but what happens, happens. I haven't spoke to Simon ever since, actually I've barely gone over to the boys place the past week. I just can't face him yet without thinking about that night.

I've tried my best to keep a good attitude the last week so since the tour was soon. But even though I tried it doesn't mean I succeeded. The first three days I barely did anything. Lucas hasn't been home in forever and I don't know where he is. I've been home alone which makes it easier to not leave my room, eat once a day, and cry throughout the day knowing the man I loved did that to me. But then Ashlee came in and helped me and reminded me about the tour so I tried my hardest and now I'm better.

"Are we going over to the boys place to say our goodbyes" Ashlee asks as she rummages through the kitchen. I hesitate for a second but I decide I can't avoid all of them just because of the tension between me and Simon.

"Yeah I guess, I can't avoid all of them. I miss them" I said honestly with a soft expression. "Okay then, let's head over there. Just call the bus and tell the driver to come pick us up at the boys address" Ashlee said before disappearing into the halls.

"Harry's taking us so let's go" Ashlee says poking her head out through the doorway. I nod and roll my bags along with Ashlee's as we exit the flat with the door shutting softly.

Simons POV

100, 99, 98 I mentally count to myself as an attempt to calm myself down. This is really affecting me. The past week I've been on a video grind as an excuse not to leave my room.

Whenever I do leave my room it's only for the everyday necessities. Shower, food or bathroom. I still can't take in that I lost her, and it was my fault. I haven't seen the girl who made her way onto me that night, and I hope I never do.

"Simon" a voice trailed off snapping me back into the world. JJ walks in still looking fresh from a plane. The headphones around his neck, beanie, backpack and he had sunglasses on. "Jide how was your flight" I pulled myself off of my chair pulling him into a hug. "Sup man. So the others filled me in on what's happening since I left the night of the party. Talk to me bro" JJ says sitting on my bed while I'm in my gaming chair.

"There's nothing really to talk about. Joyce broke up with me and it's all my fault. End of story" I said wobbly as the night replayed in my head causing tears to spring my eyes. JJ glanced at me sadly before dropping his head down. "Wow okay," JJ said pausing to take a deep breath. "You love her don't you" he said sharply.

My head shot up looking him in the eye. "Yes of course I do" I said confuse why he would ask me such a question. "Then go after her. If you love her you wouldn't let her slip away like this" JJ tells me sternly. I nodded knowing he was right, I needed to do something.

"But she leaves for her tour today" I said slapping a hand on my face. "Really" JJ asks and I nod turning towards my computer to show him. "See it says it here on her website" I pointed out pulling up a tab with her website on it. "Well then you have time" JJ says excitedly making me laugh. "Yeah I guess, anyw-" my words get caught off by a sound downstairs.

"What's that" I ask caution laced in my tone. JJ shrugs and we begin to make our way downstairs slowly hearing the noise continue. I shushed JJ walking in front of him peeking my head down. "Are you expecting anyone today" JJ asks me in a hushed voice and I shake my head no.

"Because those are two people down there" JJ says peeking further as do I. I see two humans on the bottoms step talking. "Stay calm okay I got this" I said stepping on the top stair.

"Hey who are you" my voice says loudly causing the two to jump up from the stairs facing me. It takes me a while to notice that it's Ashlee and Joyce. "Jesus Simon you scared us, we just came over since we are leaving in a bit. Harry's still outside doing who knows what" Ashlee says and my mind confuses at the word "we".

"We" I ask waving JJ over after knowing it's Ashlee and Joyce. I begin to walk down the rest of the stairs scooting past the two girls. Joyce so far hasn't said a word, and by the look of her face she was highly uncomfortable. I wish I can just talk to her normally and keep her from being in the state she is now.

"Oh yeah you don't know. Well I'm going on Joyce's tour with her because of uh yeah" Ashlee said happily before turning hesitant by the end. Hearing this broke me a little inside. Glancing over at Joyce again I see her biting her lip and turning the other direction multiple times. By experience I know Joyce is sad, fighting back tears. This makes me have the same feeling.

"Oh sick, where is your first destination" JJ asks as I fix myself blinking away the slight tears. "The Philippines actually. Fun fact Joyce's hometown" Ashlee says and a memory sparks in my mind.

Back in school when Joyce would tutor me. Me and her would have small side conversations about each other. Past things, dreams, and where we are from. I remember the smile on her face as she tells me about the Philippines. Sounds like an amazing environment.

"Your from there" JJ asks surprised and Joyce laughs before nodding. "Basically Mom and Dad are from there not me. But I classify myself as from there" Joyce says smiling. "So I will just get the others I guess" I said awkwardly as I squeeze past them running upstairs. "How's Simon, is he okay. I really hope he hasn't been like me" I hear Joyce's voice say in a hushed tone yet I could still here.

Hasn't been like me? What has Joyce been like.
Has she had a horrible experience with this. I hope she didn't hurt herself in any way. I stay put in that spot hearing another voice.

"I'm not sure, I haven't been home" JJ answers before hearing Joyce sigh. "Don't worry one of the boys will tell you" JJ says. After that I walk towards the others rooms knocking on Viks door first. "Hey Vik, Joyce and Ashlee are here might wanna come downstairs before they leave for tour" I said poking my head through the door. "Oh yeah, I'll be down in a bit" he said clicking away on his mouse.

Then going to Josh's doing the same as he follows me out downstairs. "Kitchen I'm guessing" I said after not seeing them all by the door like before. My guess was correct seeing everyone talking among one another. I walk in seeing a bunch of stools still available.

I begin to walk to the one farthest from Joyce just to avoid tension. Before I'm able to make it there I feel a purpose shove stumbling me to the side landing in a random seat. Seeing Josh with a smirk on his face I know exactly where I am. I look to my side seeing Joyce with an amused smile.

"Props to you Josh, he landed straight in the chair" Joyce says holding a hand out for Josh who high fives her laughing along with her. Somehow I ended up being the embarrassed, shy and awkward person. Joyce sits back down flattening her outfit.

As if Joyce suddenly has this big boost of confidence she began talking to me. "So Simon how you been" she says casually with me being the opposite. Sentences lock up in my throat not having enough strength to make its way up. I couldn't say anything without feeling bad. "Simon hey are you okay" She asks patting my back sending a familiar spark through my body.

"Yeah I'm fine" I said coughing to clear my throat. "Don't be awkward please" she says suddenly and I freeze literally not knowing what to say next.

A/N
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