Ellie keeps me strong. It's a really hard time for me. I feel like nobody cares about me or is there for me but she keeps me smiling no matter what. Some people might not understand how a person I don't even know can mean so much to me. She just never disappoints me and always keeps my head up. She's the person who can always make me happy and I feel like she's the only one.
So although my dad was in hospital, I still tried my best to stay positive and and just helped him to get through this. I still didn't know the reason why he drank but I know that it must have been something big. If he isn't ready to tell me that, it's okay I guess. I don't want to force him to anything. I just worry so much about him. I can't see a person I love, feeling so bad. It just hurts so much.
Oh and I set myself a goal to socialize more. I realized that I wanted to change something in my life. I just couldn't live like this anymore. I wanted to be happy just like all the others and I didn't understand why it's not possible for me to be happy.
Today my dad was released from the hopital. As always I didn't go to school. I spent the whole morning in my room while listening to music as someone rang at the door. So I walked downstairs and opened the door. In front of me stood a green eyed, tall girl. It was Cara. The only one I actually liked at school. But still... why was she here?
