From Time (Abused Sequel)

Confessions

Shania P.O.V :

A couple of nights ago was so fun it was just so relaxing,  But I've been avoiding jacob lately and I know he doesn't like it but its all in how I am feeling Like I feel worthless and like a piece of shit. Now I was on FaceTime with Daya I haven't chat with my baby in a while I miss her.

" How you doing Daya?"

"good" she said clearly I cheesed

" I miss you"

" M-Mi-" Zion cut her off.

" Daya slow down say Miss Mi-ss." Zion said slowing down the words.

" M-Miss you to" Tears formed in my eyes.

" aww Daya, Zion thanks so much oh my god she is talking so perfect." She laughed moving Daya out the camera.

" no problem girl you thought I was lying when I said I have nun else to do?" I chuckled

" Guess not but whatyou doing?"

"Waiting on Chre to bring me and Daya food. OH! look" She should me another growing tooth of Daya I smiled.

" Wow my baby girl is growing so fast." Zion nod her head in agreement

" yes girl"

" So how is you and the baby?" She sigh looking down at her stomach.

" Hell" I giggled " I'm for real"

" I know thats what makes it so funny chile"

" so wassup with you and Anijah?" I kissed my lips.

" nothing really"

" The lies that you tell" she glared.

" it's really nothing everything is done and over" she rolled her eyes.

" hm okay whatever op- Um later Chre is with the food its time me to go in"I chuckled "say bye mommy"  she told Daya.

" bye ma"

" bye love you" I said as Zion hung up I sat on my bunk just having a moment of silence to my self then Curshonda came in. " what?" She took out her phone typing something when she was done my phone vibrated. " I over heard The boys talking and Jacob said your shutting him out like He lays with you and what you usually do is give him all your attention but now your just ignoring him and he also said you guys aren't sexually attracted like y'all use to be." I whispered to myself and after the last word I sighed, and started typing back she got the message and read it quietly.

" Don't tell him anything but I'm just not feeling me like I feel ugly, worthless, pathetic piece of shit I just been ignoring him cause if I feel ugly I feel that he feels the same way and I just need my distance." She raised her eyebrow.

" Why do you feel like that though?" I read out loud.

" I don't know I've been in my feelings for a while I think its just a phase though but that day me and Anijah was in it I did this and my arm has not stop bleeding it's been on and off." She read then looked at my arm, I showed her the cut and she made a face, then she put her phone down talking to me face to face.

" why are you doing this you need to tell him how you really feel and what you did and you need to go to the hospital because you can die of losing too much blood" she said sure of herself I rolled my eyes cause she was right.

" I wont tell him but I will go to the hospital and get my arm fixed"she sighed.

" either you tell him or I will" I gasped.

" you would not" she nod her head.

" but I will" " so tell him now"

"you wouldn't" I said not believing her. She shook her head and got out my bunk.

" JACOB COME HERE!" she yelled I just stood there knowing she wasn't going to actually so I just laid down on my phone. Minutes later my curtains slide open quickly with force I assumed it was Jacob I turned to see him mad.

" I assume Curshonda told you?"

" YES!" he yelled making me flinch. He closed the curtains "why?"I sigh as I positioning myself to explain.

" well Jacob first off I think I'm going through it I feel ugly ,worthless,and a pathetic piece of shit Like I don't know I just been really down on myself like remember that morning I was taking a shower and I locked the door and yelled at you? yeah well I just felt If I don't like myself you wouldn't like me either"He stared at me deeply I was confused like do I continue or will he say something?. I guess I'll continue.  " Then when me and Anijah got into it that day the only reason I was like I forgive her is because I...I cut Sighs myself and now and then my arm stills bleed" He rested his head in his hands and there were silence. I heard sniffing I looked at him. " Jacob... Are...Are you crying?" He slowly looked up at me and mummbled something.  " huh"

"I'm Sorry" I was totally confused.

" Why?"

" cause I should have been doing my part. Shania I really mean it literally this time I love you like so much you changed me in so many ways and I'm still coming alone, You are perfect in my eye. I'm so in love with you it doesn't even make since I love everything about you Head to toe I promise I will treat you everyday things in this relationship is going to change I just dont see why you didn't tell me and in order to have a good relationship we need to communicate" I teared up a bit cause I 100% believe him this time. " And promise me you will not harm yourself anymore?"

"I promise" He brought me into a long deep hug and laid me down kissing me.

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Jacob P.O.V :

After me and Shania was done we just laid there out of breath to be honest it felt real good cause it's been a while since we have done it It's been almost two week now to think about it. I put my arm around her bringing her closer kissing her forehead.

" Love you"

" Love you too" She said as we sat there for a while then got dressed in the bunk and got out Everyone looked at us.

" Moans Oh Jacob yes yes faster right...Right Exhales There." Rayan mocked. I laughed looking at Shania she looked so embarrassed. " This what yall was sounding like this Claps" Rayan said Shania was so embarrassed she walked away and I followed her.

" Are you okay?" I asked

" yeah I'm bout to take shower though and I'll be back"I grabbed her arm.

" let me come with?" She looked at me chuckling. " I'm serious"

" No"

" oh really?" She shook her head walking away I grabbed her by her hips. " Why just stop at round 1?"

" Because everyone goes to this shower thats nasty"I shrugged.

" so what they don't know won't hurt them"

" Their going to hear me." She said crossing her arms.

" That's why I have my Iphone and the speakers they won't even know." she chuckled nodding her head.

" okay" She said giving in. as soon as she left I did a devious smirk rubbing my hands together.

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