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fifteen.

me, jihoon and jimin woke up extra early so we can go to the island. as soon as we reach the shore, jihoon started doing the things i asked him to do. as for me i sat at one of the rocks and start sketching.

i already have the final idea of the hotel but i still need to figure out the materials that will be used and i also need to know that opinion of the others at the company. i didn't hired them for nothing.

"that's great," i looked at my back and saw jimin looking at my sketch.

"thanks, i guess." i said.

"is that the final look?"

"no, me and the others are still gonna discuss about this when i get back to the office."

i focused on my sketch pad and finish my work.

"all done, miss." jihoon said when he reached my side.

"okay, good." i looked at jimin, "i think we can already leave."

he nodded and called dino to prepare the boat and the jackets.

for a minute the kiss that happened yesterday replayed in my mind. i shake my hands at that thought.

"you okay, miss?" jihoon asked. i nodded at him.

i rid of that thought as i didn't noticed that we are already sailing and we are close to the shore.

jihoon got off first then jimin then me. the others was at the backyard, grilling the meat that they bought earlier at the supermarket near here.

"let's eat!" jin oppa said as soon as he sees us.

all of us started eating but i noticed jimin keeps on starting at me.

"noona might melt if you keep on staring, hyung." jungkook teased jimin.

thank god no one heared jungkook except the two of them and me. that would be very embarrassing not only for jimin but also for me if the others heared it.

"just shut up and eat okay." jimin warned jungkook but the maknae just shrug it off.

the night came and all of us was busy picking the right outfit for the party. me and myongjoo are here in our room and probably the others too.

"yoonji, what will you wear?" 

"maybe a denim shorts and a white blouse."

"can i see the blouse?" she asked. i gave her my top, "is this see through?" i nodded. "you should totally wear a swimsuit top underneath it." she said.

"but people will see." i said.

"well that the purpose why your gonna wear a swimsuit, for the people to see it." she said. "don't worry, im going to wear mine also,"

i followed what myongjoo told me to do and changed into my party clothes.

"you look hot, girl!" myongjoo said when i step out of the bathroom. "jimin will probably drool."

myongjoo finished preparing as we both went downstairs and saw everyone is already there. they all compliment me about the clothes im wearing and how i look good in it.

i must say i gain a little confidence.

i didn't see jimin and just shrug it off. but then when we went outside, i saw jimin leaning at the boat that i think we are going to us. the boat was a bit big compared to the boat that we used to get to the island.

"let's go!" taehyung said.

we wear our life jacket and we sailed off. i was a bit excited bcs it's been a long time since i had fun and went to a party.

the moment we get off the boat we already steal some glances. well, i don't think they look at me. probably the guys that im with right now.

the party was already in full swing the moment we stepped in. the boys was gentleman enough to brings us drinks.

i glanced at the place. people laughing, people drinking, couples grinding and may more.

"let's have fun!" jimin shouted as we cheered with him.

after an hour i was kind of tipsy bcs i had a few drinks but i cam still manage. my couple friends are nowhere to be seen probably they're doing something that married couple and engaged couples do. that's why i'm stuck with a sleeping myongjoo and jihoon and a flirty jungkook and also normal jimin.

i think jimin's alcohol tolerance is so high that he needs to drink a lot before he gets tipsy.

"you want to get out?" he asked me and i nodded.

he hold my hand and drag me out of the club. we just walked a little and no one talked. you can just hear the waves approaching the shore.

we stopped walking and i went in front of him. i looked at him– more like, stared at him.

"you want something?" he asked. i didn't answer him. instead i looked at his lips. it's like a magnet pulling me.

"are you sure?" i asked him.

"yes, i am."

"are you drunk or something?"

"no im perfectly fine." he replied.

i was in the verge of crying.

"do you really want this?" i asked, he nodded. "did i do something wrong?"

"no."

"then why are you breaking up with me, park fucking jimin!" i asked him angrily. "i don't understand why you suddenly want to end this."

"i'm sorry, yoonji. please understand me."

"how am i supposed to understand it if you won't tell me the reason why?!" i shouted at him.

"i'm really sorry," he then left me all alone.

but i still love you even after all these years, even if you didn't tell me the real reason why.

i leaned over to kissed him, expecting he'll do the same but no. he pushed me and told me, "i'm sorry i can't do this."

he left me all alone for the second time and felt my heart broke also for the second time.

a/n longest chapter so far. told you this is gonna be long.