Starting Over

Chapter 1

One year Later

I was getting so much better. I haven't had a panic attack in months. I had a 4.0 gpa, a great job at a daycare center, and the world's best boyfriend. South Carolina was the best decision I ever made. No one hated me here and called me the spoiled rich brat. I was an awful human in Florida. I tried to change while I was there but having no one give you a second chance isn't easy.

I never looked back once I left. I deleted all social media and didn't keep in contact with anyone but one person. Maggie. She saw me break down in the middle of the street when I left Rush's house and just comforted me. I was outside throwing up in the street crying and Maggie pulled over to make sure I was ok. I knew she probably heard town gossip that i was  the worst person alive. But she didn't care.

She just was there. I told her my side of the story and how hard it was for me to watch him happy without me. He was the only constant in my life and seeing him put me second to someone terrified me. I knew one day he just wouldn't be there anymore. Being alone scared me more than anything. Maggie just listened and told me she understood. Since that day on I talked to her everyday about everything. She was the only person I told I was moving and she was more than supportive. Maggie was my biggest supporter and I couldn't be more thankful. If it wasn't for her I honestly didn't know if I would still be here.

I smiled down at my phone at the pictures she sent me of her and her new puppy, while I sat in my biology class. Maggie hasn't changed much since I left but she didn't need too. She was perfect already. Smart, nice, and caring. Everything that I wanted to be.

Me: AH! So cute. Please come visit me and bring the little guy! I miss you so much love. You would love Charleston so much.

Maggie: I forgot to tell you, I'm coming this summer!! Make room for me!

My eyes went big and less than a second later my professor dismissed class. I walked out and went to meet with Wesley like I always did. I could smell him before I saw him. His arms engulfed me and he then I felt his lips against my cheek.

"Hey baby" he whispered in my ear. I turned around in his arms and looked up at him and smiled. 

"Hi." I answered.

I turned and grabbed his hand so we could walk out of the building. We stepped outside and he asked "Are we getting lunch today or do you have work today?"

"I'm free you have me all day" I smiled and we kept walking down the street.

"Ok Panera or chipotle?" he asked, knowing those were my two favorite options offered at College of Charleston.

"Panera" I smiled.

We walked inside Panera and ordered. We sat and ate while he told me about how much his coach has been working him in conditioning and how excited he was to be baseball caption this year. He mainly talked and I smiled. That's how it normally was. I kind of lost my voice when I moved. I was so scared to talk to anyone. I didn't want anyone to hate me here. Somehow Wes brought it out of me. He knew almost everything about me. Everything but my family. He thinks they're all dead. I'm far too embarrassed to tell him the truth. He deserved it but the old me didn't deserve him. He looked down at his phone and checked the time and frowned. I copied and frowned too knowing he had to leave soon.

Before he could say anything, I gave him a quick kiss and whispered "Bye, I'll see ya later."

He tickled my side and made me giggle, which he knew I hated "Oh my GOD. Stop please were in public!!" He stopped and gave me a big sloppy kiss on my cheek. He then smirked knowing he did a great job at embarrassing me when the table beside us was just staring at me. He stood up grabbing his book bag, winked, and left me.