Between Your Body & Your Soul {Alan Ashby}

Chapter 13

When I got on the bus, I heard Vic and Tony practically shouting in the back. They were the last people I wanted to see right now.

"Hey Annabelle." Tino greeted me.

I didn't say anything. I just walked past him, into the bunk area. I really didn't want to talk to anyone. Climbing into Austin's bunk, I breathed in deeply, taking in his scent. Austin loved performing. He deserves to be here, touring, meeting fans, doing what he loves. I couldn't cry. There were no more tears, just the numb feeling.

I heard someone walk to the back. Probably Tino. I heard them mumbling to each other in the lounge about me, but I could care less.

"Annabelle?" I heard Alan moving the curtain to the other bunks. I didn't move or reply back. I just stared at the picture of Austin and I he had hanging in his bunk. The curtain to his bunk opened and I felt Alan put his hand on my hip.

"Babe are you okay?" Alan asked. He tugged on my waist a little and I turned and looked at him.

I couldn't bring myself to speak. He stared at me, waiting for a response, but he wasn't going to get one.

Alan climbed into the bunk and continued to look at me. There was something in his eyes, disappointment? Sadness? Whatever it was, it made me feel worse than I already had.

"Nabel please say something." he begged. I didn't even try. I just snuggled into his chest. He put his arms around me and rested his chin on my head. I felt like my body had just completely shut down, emotionless, I just stared off into my own world.

& Vic's POV &

"What the hell is going on with her?" I sighed, running my hands threw my hair and staring at the ground.

"Did she say anything to you?" Tony asked Jaime. I looked up at stared at him. Jaime just looked at the carpet, not saying a word.

"Jaime, what happened?" I asked, getting annoyed.

"Vic calm down." Tino set his hand on my shoulder. I got up and walked over to Jaime and stood in front of him.

"She just asked if we were going to cancel tour." he said quietly.

I threw my hands up. I was getting so pissed off and I didn't know why.

"Well she wouldn't just stop talking." I huffed.

"Vic, she can be going through shock. I mean Austin in the hospital for his heart acting up and they lost their mom to some heart disease. Just sit and calm the fuck down." Tony said.

Sitting down, I took deep breaths. My wrists began to ache. I rubbed them, trying to make them stop throbbing. Jaime got up and sat next to me and rubbed my back.

"I also said something I really wish I hadn't." he said. I looked at him and urged him to go on.

"I told her we wanted to stay with them so she didn't get too stressed taking care of Austin by herself, and do something stupid." he mumbled quietly.

"Jaime, for Christ sake-" Tony started.

"You know how she takes shit like that, why would you even say that?" I interrupted.

"I don't know! It just slipped out!" he shrugged.

I was fed up. I got up and left the bus, slamming the door behind me. I walked back to our bus and climbed to the top of it. Sitting on the top, I played with the bracelets on my wrist. I heard someone open the bus door below. Soon, Mike was sitting next to me looking at the sky.

"What's up bro?" Mike asked, still staring at the sky.

"Do you think it was a good idea to cancel tour?" I asked looking at him.