Blood Sweat Tears and You (Yoonseok)

Part 7

"Hyung-"

"Do you know how long it took to find you?! Why did you leave without saying anything? I tried calling and you didn't answer, the kids said you went to the studio but when I came by nobody was here! No lights no nothing! Seok what's going on where the hell where you?" The older couldn't stop the frustration that spilled out every which way from his tone. Hoseok was shocked at the sudden outburst, the raw emotions evident, and the pure fact that the older cared this much.

The younger was silent, and that's when Yoongi spotted on the desk, a ruffled plastic bag with a small pill container in front, and one to many tablets lined up.

His heart was drowning in an unforgiving sea at the sight, "That's where you were...that's what you were getting..." the lump in his throat threated his speech, "Seok..."

"Hyung please."

Speaking through his blocked throat and teary eyes, "Please what?! That's exactly what you said last time but what is it you need?"

"Hyung-"

"Tell me those pills aren't real."

"Yoongi please-"

"Hoseok just tell me they're not real."

"Yoongi I-"

"No. Seok, look I don't know how the fuck the other members haven't noticed this, Jimin told me you've been leaving like this for weeks. How many times have you come back to the dorm at three A.M. covered in sweat, blood spilled, and tears rolling down your face!? Then you go and put on a smile the next day like nothings wrong you even went so far as to take care of ME in the past few weeks. Your fine during the day, you're all smiles and shit and then as soon as the sun goes down so do you. Yeah I get that your existence itself is literally the sun in everyone's lives and your smile is the fucking warmth but when the sun goes down there's still the moon that rises. There's still light Seok. And like...fucking stars and shit ok so please...

Don't say your fine. Just let me help you."

Yoongi knew he was crying but kept eye contact with Hoseoks deep brown orbs, fearing if he looked away, he would lose the younger completely.

Hoseok was like a statue, not saying anything, not moving, it seemed like he wasn't even breathing. The stillness that haunted the room was shattered when a single tear fell from the youngers eyes. Followed by another, and another, eventually the boy couldn't stop the sob that escaped his lips. Jumping out of the chair Hoseok latched onto Yoongi, sobbing into his shoulder, holding the boy for dear life. Fearing that if he let go, it would all go.

Yoongi held the younger just as tightly, wrapping his arm around the boys shaking back and the other firmly holding the back of his head. Yoongi's sobs harmonizing to the melody of Hoseoks as the older petted the youngers hair gently, with a tear filled voice he whispered, "Seok, I'm not a butterfly, I'm not going to disappear if you try to reach out. Please believe me, please let me help. I know...I know what its like...so please Seok let me help."

Through sobs muffled by Yoongis shoulder, the younger whispered, "Thank you...Hyung" The older responded by planting a gentle kiss to Hoseoks soft hair.

Awhile passed before Hoseoks sobs calmed to a steady rhythm, and Yoongi had a deja vu moment. Trying to lift the mood he joked with a sweet smile, "Looks like the roles switched huh?" earning a chuckle from the younger as he nuzzled himself in the crook of Yoongis neck. "Hyung, I'm sorry I made you so angry...I really didn't want you to worry..." The older calmly shushed him, tiredly running his fingers through the light brown locks, "I'm sorry I got mad. It really isn't my place I know, but I just couldn't help it."

The older moved so that they could comfortably lay on a small couch in the back of the studio, Hoseok kept his face in Yoongis warm chest. Still tightly holding onto the embrace. Yoongi continued running his hands through the younger's hair, soothingly humming melodies he didn't know. "Hyung, can I fall asleep? Just for a few minutes?" the dancer asked, sleep heavy in his voice. "Of course, Seok." The older replied, planting another gentle kiss in the boys' hair before feeling the ocean of sleep claim him as well.

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The tranquil air and soft breathing of the two boys that filled the studio was broken as Power by Kanye blasted from Yoongis phone. Still filled with sleep the older answered it with a sleep induced grunt before Namjoons voice rang from the other side, "Yoongi! You know we have a schedule today where are you? Is Hoseok with you? The kids said they saw you at the studio are you still there?" Yoongi grunted, "Maybe. Can't you guys just go through the schedule without us?"

"No. We're on the way, get ready."

Beep

The older rapper groaned dropping his phone behind him on the couch, feeling the younger nuzzle closer to him. Instinctively Yoongi wrapped his arms tighter around the boy, giving rise to a warm feeling that filled his heart. It was strange, all the members would cuddle with each other from time to time, living with the same six guys for years it was bound to happen anyway. But this was different. Yoongi wasn't sure how or why just yet, but holding the younger like this was such an intimate and natural thing he wondered why they hadn't done it more often.

Yoongi was ripped from his thoughts by the knock on the door. Filled with sleep the older tried, "Joonie give me like 5 minutes and I'll be out." The boy on the other side gave a heavy sigh, "Alright, but seriously be in the car in five minutes."

"Yeah yeah" and with that, the dark haired boy could hear the footsteps leave and then fade before whispering to the younger, "Seokie we have to get up now." Running his hands through the youngers hair, Hoseoks eyes slowly fluttered open. As their gazes met, Yoongi felt his heart beat faster. Hoseoks sleepy eyes, messy hair, bare face, and the subtle hint of his collarbone through his thin shirt made Yoongis cheeks fill with heat. All the members are like this when they wake up. Hoseok is no different. Yoongi kept thinking to himself. However, he couldn't help but want to keep this version of the younger just for himself.

The older, trying to shake off the thoughts in the back of his mind, started to get up from the shared couch. Much to the youngers protest of course. "Seok come on, Namjoon is going to get mad at us if we're not in the car in like, a minute." With the absence of warmth, the younger found it easier to get himself up. After a yawn Hoseok spoke, "Morning'" As he got up, the boys eyes grew wide in realization. As the previous night's events washed over him he looked down, "Hyung...thank you...tonight after the schedules, please, let me explain everything." The older gave a reassuring and relieved smile, "You don't have to walk alone Hoseok. You don't have to ever again. Ever." The dark haired boy spoke with a serious, yet loving expression. The two boys leaned their foreheads against each other, staying still for a moment and just drinking in each others presence.

After a moment they headed out towards the car with the other members. Yoongi took his usual spot near the front. And as expected, Hoseoks smile was beaming as he stepped into the car, except this time, instead of sitting in the back with the maknaes, he sat beside Yoongi. The car ride was peaceful, like normal really. Yoongi let his gaze wander out the window, trying to forget the warmth that the younger gave him earlier. That is until he felt it again as light brown locks gently rested on his shoulder. He couldn't help the gummy smile that filled his features. Yoongi was confused as to why he was so happy with the small gesture, its just because he's opening up right? He's going to let me help, that it. But the boy couldn't help but feel that his gummy smile came from more then just that as he rested his head atop Hoseoks.

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